im back..... i think

What they say @outlander? Why do you say they think you are faking it?

i went in there and asked a heap of questions about a lot of things and im sure she now thinks im lying @Anony18 @Pepsimax

all my blood work is back- no thyroid issues either, iron is fine etc etc

i ahve no bugs or parasites at allat the moment the only thing 'wrong' is the hpv which they cant do anything for and it will always be in my body it just might not show all the time so great- no more relationships with anyone as im not going to give it to anyone else- so now im a carrier so yay

i was talking to her about the psychology and she said its up to me but she really extremely highly reccomends it esp after the last report from the suicide prevetion program. so back to conselling it is. and when ive used up the last 4 sessions i cant get anymore until novemeber so its literally going to send me broke.

i was telling her about the breast lump and she said theres a high chance it might come back but its still looking as best it can and will look like a bruise type of thing for a while kinda like a scar i asked her about the breast exam and she said usually when getting the pap smear done they would do it so yearly or twice a year- but ill get my nurse to do that- shes already seen the rest of me- cant get any mroe embarrassed then what i am

i was talking to her also about the discharge and itching and she said well theres no infections or anything. she said it could be a ph imbalance down stairs so try to get a wash and wipes and see if that makes a difference. the only problem with that is. i ahve no privacy- i cant put that in the bathroom otherwise ill get a thousand and one questions and i dont want that- im already embarrassed enough. so it looks like im stuck with being 'wet' and sometimes itchy. so thats really great not.

she said stop the antacids as they would only work if i had that bug but i don tso shes given me maxalon for nauesa to see how it goes

i must sound like a complete and total utter idiot having these complaints and theres 'nothing' wrong

No @outlander .... it's okay .... stress and distress can cause very real physical responses. It is worth going and doing all the tests, as you have done, to find out whether there is anything going on that needs intervention and treatment, but if there is nothing showing up, then instead of upsetting yourself over that, take a deep breath and allow a sense of relief to come through to you ....

You really don't want to have something wrong. It's very good that there is nothing wrong. What you need to do now is work out what you can do to treat the physical symptoms you are experiencing with non-medicine treatments, like having a hot or cool shower, using heat or ice packs, massage, rest, breathing techniques etc to help you to manage stress and reduce the symptoms you are experiencing .... self-care and self-soothing.

Keep taking care of you. You behaved sensibly and maturely. That's what we see. Be gentle with yourself Hon.

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Good work on getting your certificate @outlander! Though, I have to say, I'm not suprised - you worked hard for it.

thank you @CherryBomb im really freaking out and i really should think about things before i do them

just about to reply to you @Faith-and-Hope

Well done @outlander. A big congratulatory hug to you.

thank you @Shaz51

@Shaz51@CherryBomb@Faith-and-Hope@Anony18@utopia@Pepsimax@Former-Member@Owlunar

i am a friggin idiot

i got a $132 bill for the pathology results for the pap smear and i said to mum look at the bill and she doesnt know about the pap smear and now i think shes goignt o question me. i dont lie and i feel really bad but cause she doesnt understand results ive told her its for bloods and im hoping she doesnt pick up on it

thanks for your advice @Faith-and-Hope

I know stress/distress can cause a lot of physical responses but after all those tests I thought something might have explained something
im glad the results have gotten back that there isnt bad and I dont want anythign to be wrong but I feel like such a dummy because there isnt anything wrong if that makes sense

and this discharge isnt normal for me yet apparently it is as well so I dont know. I hate walking around while wearing aliner most of the time and not just when im on my period- its all the time and I know thats not good to do but I dont have much else of a choice

I have been trying to manage the stresses- ive started doing art which is great and I do more exercise and my sleep is sometimes better. I still get massages as well and if I feel sick I often still use heat packs on my stomach

I ahte walking around and gagging half of the time. It really isnt pleasant so hopefully the maxalon will help with that