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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Former-Member @Determined @Anony18 @soul @Faith-and-Hope
i was lil-caterpillar
im back... i think...
im treading very very lightliy at the moment
@Anony18 i also seen those pics you posted from your hike. they were beautiful and also the artworks too thank you for thinking of me
F&H - i also read on my depression thread as well. thank you for careing even though i left
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Anony18Senior Contributor
Good luck today @outlander! Why are you embarrassed?
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Anony18Senior Contributor
I can imagine how scary it is @outlander. I guess all you can try to do is breathe and relax as much as you possibly can. Do something to distract you from it? I know it is hard when your mind is so focus on what ifs, I am the same so it is easier said than done.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
i was jsut about to respond on the other thread lol @Faith-and-Hope thats ok ill write it all here. im trying not to overload people with tagging so im trying to remeber where everyone is posting so i dont constantly tag people . all Good though. just give me a sec to write the full response form both threads here 🙂
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Anony18Senior Contributor
@outlander If it is easier, maybe send a link to the other thread 
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outlanderSenior Contributor
alright sorry that took so long to reply @Anony18@Faith-and-Hope
i think its ok though im not sure if the steroid cream is going to help considering my breast hurts as wel esp in line with the vein that seems to be leaking. But ive got to use it 3 a day over the weekend and see if theres any effect at all.
My gp doesnt quite know about my CSA but she does know a lot of my mental health history and is kind and gentle.
She helps me as well by making a few jokes to help me along through the session but knows how much is too much and only soes it where she can so its kinda like a normal conversation with her.
I know you wasnt trying to paly down anything (heart) I get what you were doing 🙂
my womens health nurse knows about my csa and I was comfortabel enough to tell her thats why I decided to go through her to get the exam done.
Ive been playing music and I went out shopping with mum not long ago which is rare for me to be able to do so that was nice. Im very much needing to study today too
F&H hows your headache going for you now? And I thought it would be easier to let people know it was me, though I wasnt going to come back so earlier but I was missing the good people on here. You are like family to me as are many others.
When I left I felt like I slammed the door in some peoples faces but I felt it was something that needed to be done otherwise the consquences of me staying. Its not that simple for me when I get that much into that sort of mood and state to just take a step abck from the fourms, sometimes I cant hold my tounge and ill go off which is extremeley rare but as I said once I hit that mood it really is like a volcano erupting
in regard to moving to a new shell though I think ive shrunk not grown though maybe having the resilience and maturity to know when to leave and when to come back and how to respond to these sort of things maybe that shell has grown abit
yes I get massages too and I kept thinking my meds were giving me headaches but it turns out im under that musch tension and stress ive taken to the habit of teeth clenching and now its hard to stop
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