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Try a splash your face with cold water @outlander

Have you tried some of the strategies I have previously suggested? When your panicking its important to focus on something and ground yourself and/ or distract yourself.

Try and engage in something that assists your to organise your thoughts and then maybe do something relaxing

Take care outlander

Hi @outlander

I am sorry you are so stressed out and your sister is sick - but hey

It's not your fault she's sick -

If it was something she ate - I guess everyone including you - ate the same meal and if everyone is okay that's not it. She could have a tummy bug - and then that happens people don't get sick all at the same time - it tends to get passed around

Please don't worry that things are your fault - you do more your family than I ever did - I had to escape from my family of origin - so I did not have that burden you carry - but you do a lot - and that is important

And the special teddy - how old is your sister!!!! - And if that teddy is important to you - maybe you need the teddy - okay - I can be reasonable - but you are not at all well either - so take the teddy for a short time then choose to give it to your sister - don't just let her have it

But through all this take care of yourself - I gather from what I have read in your thread that you are putting everyone ahead of yourself regarding your need for a break in hospital - I have thought though - if you don't have private insurance getting into a public hospital is really difficult - have you had your pyschiatrist suggest this

You do need a break - a couple of days away so you can pamper yourself sounds great - your mother can cope with that lot - ah - I feel so much for you

Caring heaps

Dec

@Owlunar

she has a stomach bug of some sort apparently theres one going around and she jsut so happened to get it. its my health anxiety that starts up when people are sick and its extremely hard to control. esp when coughs, snoring from blocked noses, loss of appetite as you do when your feeling like crap and feeling sick from a stomach bug. it doesnt matter what it might be itll set it off and i cant control it very well. and besides that im always stressed

my sister is 6 years old and it means the world to here, it was her first teddy and it comes every where with us including when she did end up in hospital when she was like 1 for a virus thing and the teddy comes with us on holidays and everything.

ive decided not to go to hospital i need to save it for people who are worse off then i am and ill keep using my coping strategies where i can to hopefull conrol what i can and save the hospital for when i really truley need it, yes i know i need it now but i think this option will work for everyone..

yes my psychiatrist said if things get worse call 000 and go get that urgent help

and im having yet more troubles with the anti-depressants whihc is very annoying and im ready to just stop them all together!

i know i need a bloody break, i really do. i know im not well and probably need more than a night away but again i think im ok with the decsion and trying to make where i can work even if it means not fully getting into hospital or a retreat. i am seeing a psychologist next week for the first time in a while

omstars @outlander

Your sister is only 6 years old and your mother goes to work and leaves you to look after her - ah - that's super-rough on you and actually cruel to your sister - I would not go to work or university when my kids were sick - they needed their mother

I am so sorry - I did not understand she was that little - yeah - give her the teddy bear - who wants a teddy bear a sick kid has chucked all over - that sounds so bitchy but that's what I feel

Hospital would not be easy to get into - you can get an ambulance if you need to - that's good to know - you have something up your sleeve just in case - but it's not for people you feel are worse of than you are - probably few people would be so generous with their thinking - but yes - on the other hand -

I do not take my bad back into the ED - I feel I am cluttering the place up - there is nothing they can do for me there - it's years since I went there with my back problems and then it was when I had a fall in public and the paramedics who came to get me back onto my feet insisted on taking me there - now I tell them - just get me onto my feet and I will be fine

But when I needed to - I have gone to the ED - it is there for everyone - just true that a lot of people could go to their doctor but don't -

But if you need to - then you need to - you have been seeing doctors and if you are in a bad place - then act from there and don't worry about other people

You need a break of some kind - I think you are stressed out and run-down and I hope that tummy back doesn't get passed around - no one wants a tummy bug

Sheesh - your sister is only 6 - I had no idea they were so young - that is one huge responsibility for someone as young as you are

Tummy-bug free hugs

Dec