im back..... i think

yes thats my nurse appointment @CheerBear

yes i seen the dr i trust today but i dont see how a topical cream is going to help me- i can only hope. i guess i cant do much now until monday when i see her next. its a double whammy on monday as i see my gp about the lump and then the womens health nurse for the pelvic exam

its a constant dull ache in the whole thing not just that one little spot its the whole thing now

im glad im not by myself on that- i know its not good to say but at least it a mutual feeling between other members as well

im trying to just push the comments out of my head but its just mixing and stating everythign i think about myself and its just reinstating that so its making it very easy for me to believe

i feel like a monster who should be ling far far away from eveyone and everything before i destroy it

im really glad your making sure your phsyical health is still remainging good @CheerBear proud of you for doing that i know its not very easy to do even for someone without abuse or anythign like that either.

and guess what things just got worse

that really is ok @CheerBear im here for you too. sending you big hugs

let me know when your appointment is tomorrow- ill be sitting with you and when we are both out we can give each other big virtual hugs and high fives

yesterday i was with her right and we were at the horses and i tried to engage in abit of convo with her asking how horse horse is as she got a new one and as people do jsut ask questions- how ahve you been hwo are you enjoying your new horse then she pretty much shoved me out of the way and said i dont like the horse anymore and i though oh i wonder whats went on there. she was havng a bit of troules with him so i offerred if she would like me to give her a hand and see if we can work out his 'buttons' so the way he thinks and the ways he responds to commands and she just walked away from me
and tonight i finally check my face book after a few days and whats the first thing that pops up
shes out riding this horse having a blast and then she puts a pic up of another friend of hers and says when your bestie steals your horse. mid you this is the horse that she hated and wanted nothing to do with and didnt want anyone to ride

can i please get some advice on this friendship situation

@Former-Member@Owlunar@CheerBear@Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Spookytookims

@outlander so this is the same one you had decided to step back from and wait to see if she reached out to you is it? The friend that you said you had tried 3 times with and you were sick of a kind of one way thing happening with her?

Also was this post on yours or her facebook page? Just trying to get things clear here first.

@outlander well I'm probably not the person to talk to about fb, because I don't like it or use it for exactly this reason. I think it causes a lot of harm and heartache. Also makes it much harder to put distance between those you need to because they are right "there" in front of you and most people find it very difficult not to look at the fbs of people they are trying to distance themselves from.

I don't know if you are aware, but there are a lot of studies being done on this kind of thing in regards to social media and fb in particular because of really bad consequences of how fb is sometimes used. But it relates to all forms of social media on the net really it's just that of course fb is the biggie because basically it's impossible to get away from once you are in it. It's even been officially deemed an addiction because of the need for people to feel that little bit of a 'rush' from being liked or replied to in a validating manner.

There ok, not the response you are looking for but well.... lol you know me... out of the box 😛