im back..... i think

thank you @Former-Member i really hope you didnt take offence

@Former-Member when they stuck that thing in is was yuk and painful and felt really weird but i couldnt feel the scrapings she did . thats ok my sister just thre up and she says well i feel alot better now. it wa what we ate ast night. she said god why didnt i do that earlier. so now shes fine but i dont have the stomach to clean up puke at the moment. were you sore abit afterwards?

From what I remember @outlander - having that test done was really uncomfortable - and it was a long time ago

Your mum and your sister are ill and your sister puked - wow - did they eat something last night that was off - and I so hope you didn't eat it - wow

You have been so ill with no one taking any notice - and supposed to look after your sis today - I would draw the line at cleaning the puke though - I am someone's mother and cleaned up enough in my life - but never expected anyone else to clean up after the kids - sorry - your mum needs to get her act together about that one

But you seem like such a decent young woman - and most likely have done that yourself - with all the time at the hospital and two visits for tests at the doctors and no one seems to care - except your Pop - I guess

Okay - okay - okay - I really feel that your mother is most unkind - and I know you are in a catch-22 place about it and she is not going to change

But you seem like a really pleasant person and I am sorry you are being treated this way

hugs - Dec

hmm lucky i see my gp tomorrow then cause its burning @Former-Member and that really is ok. people can only do what they can.

i hope your ok though at least to an extent- im here for you too sending you lots of hugs

yeah it was very uncomfortable but at least she was gentle in a sense @Owlunar

yeah we had take a way last night and they had the same thing so thinking thats what it was but my sisters is fine now shes eating and is ok and mum is still in bed so im watching my sister and then going to have to get my other younger sister and then pcik up mum boyfriend from work not long after that.

i have my gp appointment tomorrow for my breast lump so ill be getting that checked in the morning and i guess ill ask about the burning feeling if it hasnt subsisded by tomorrow.

no one has noticed @Owlunar when i say im feeling sick or i dont have the energy to do that or ive got to go to an appointment and i often tell them where i am they jsut roll their eyes and say whatever. they dont care @Owlunar i have no one outside of here. i have no friends and its clear my family dont care and my pop hasnt noticed and i wouldnt want to worry him anyway. no one cares except people on here but i know alot of people are stuggling themselves on here and i cant and dont expect them to be here for me and i feel guilt asking for help all the time or at all

ive put a towel over the puke but i cant bring myself to clean it up yet.

my nurse said that im alot mturer than most people she sees and quite alot of them are older than me, im wiser beyond my years and im a very capable, caring decent young women. i seen her in my earlier years for a health issue and she said wow ive changed so much though i dont think you had much of a choice or a childhood- thats what my nurse said anyway.

ive got to ask my gp about my periods as well as its pretty much 2 months now since ive had it and i started spotting this morning but its stopped now and i dont ahve any cramps or anything to suggest its staying around but at least my fevers gone and the pain is a little bit better for my lump