im back..... i think

If you end up in hospital @outlander they will have to cope without you. You really need to think about you now, to think about them.

You need rest.

Gee @outlander

I just came on-line and so I read back on your thread

Things sound prettty bad - and you don't sound well at all

It's easy to say that you are an adult and if you have an appointment you just keep it - and your sisters are your mother's responsibility - but I had a lot of trouble with my mother when I was your age - and it is true that back then I had to be 21 to be an adult - but if we have important appoinments for our health then that's the first thing we have to do

It sounds horrible - what a terrible weekend you have had -

How close to going to hospital are you? oh - that would be hard to answer but we do know you have been under a lot of pressure

Dec

And yes @outlander - it seems as if everyone is giving you a hard time right now - right when you need some peace and quiet

I remember you wrote that your mother doesn't take any notice of your health problems and this weekend seems to be an example of that

It looks like a real mess to me

Dec

If you end up in hospital @outlander they will have to cope without you. -- i agree with @Former-Member

hospital is 30 minutes away isn`t it , have you still got a temp , maybe you need hospital tonight

Me too - I agree with them - like they said @outlander

temp is still at 37.7 @Shaz51

@Owlunar i dont feel well and cleaning that paddock didnt help me and i was the stupid one who did it but my horses wellbeing is important to me as well

i have no friends outside of here and they were really giving me a hard time today so thats not helping me either

im going to ring first thing in the morning and see if i can get an earlier appointment. i dont want to go back to hospital not at all. im too scared to go back, i really dont want to go back at all.

i think im going to finfish my cup of teas have a shower and then go to bed, if im still crook and cant get to sleep i might go back to the hospital or the medical centre as its open until 10pm as well.

so if i dont reply im either asleep or im at the hospital

and no jsut having my sisters and giving up responsisbiltiy is easier said than done. if i cant change my appointment i might have to get pop to pick my sisters up. i really hate hate doing that. i cant stand it im suppose to be looking after him not the other way around but at th moment im surprised im still moving, casue i dont want to im bloodt tired

I am feeling pretty annoyed with your mother. I think you are in your rights to say "no" when you have other commitments, for whatever reason, but when its your health extra right to say no. By now she should have worked it out without USING you. My mother was like that, endless guilt trips on me about the younger sibs, all to make her life easy, and it did not turn out any better, no matter all the things I did for her or how long I waited. I doubt your mother will improve either. You are a carer for your pop. You can always call yourself a caring person. You need help setting BOUNDARIES on your mother ... NOW.

Adult Children are not unpaid babysitters on call 24/7.

I went without periods for a year due to stress. Its not the end of the world, but a sure sign that your stress is real and you are not malingering.

I never regret leaving home when I was 16. My mum tried to have yet another competition and quickly moved out to a motel so I had to cook and care for them, the youngest was 5. In the end I waited for her to return after a week and then I left. At least I had some clarity with all the issues going on.

me too @Appleblossom im trying to work it all out im hoping to get in to see someoen early in the morning so im trying to hold off on hospital. im glad she doesnt do it to my younger siblings though so i guess thats a good thing about it occuring to me.

im not sure what you mean by malingering could you explain that abit more for me @Appleblossom