im back..... i think

Glad you are feeling better @outlander. Sorry was not around much last night. Am catching up on the posts now. I am not feeling 100% physically. I think i have the flu or coming down with it. Am trying my best to prevent that!

It feels really good to me that your feeling better @outlander, Thank you for letting us know:) I'm glad your Doctor is looking into your medications and know that it does sometimes take a while for your body to balance out with them. It's good that you've made them aware of what your going through, though I'm sorry you have to endure nausea and hope the antacids help. It's always good to have a light at the end of the tunnel, and know that if it still isn't helping in 2 weeks there are other medications to try.

The mindspot clinic for anxiety sounds wonderful and should be a good thing to do while waiting for the other programs/plan to happen. I imagine you might feel a little lost without all the study to have to do now 🙂

Honesty can be very difficult and I often worry about it backfiring, but having it in your journal will be the most helpful resource for your Doctor so that they can understand where you are at. I would think the best thing that you can do about it, is the best that you can do. No-one can do better than their best 🙂

I think seeing your Doctor and nurse on a regular basis will be very helpful for you and for them. They can't help you if they don't know what to help with.

Not only is artwork and excercise good for you, it can be loads of fun too 🙂

With the weight gain, it's up to you to decide, within your own individual mind, whether what benifits you get are worth the extra effort in exercise etc. and again there's always another medication or method to try.

It does seem to me that you are being cared for properly and that your individual needs are being considered. Well done you! It's been a battle and there will be more battles to face, but you are moving forward and caring for yourself, which will not only helps you but everyone around you (including me 🙂 )

XxX

Hi @outlander

It sounds as if seeing your therapist was helpful - and yes - you still have the pain with no explanation - but pain is real - I know that - and it doesn't go away just because no one finds a cause -

I looked up Dr Google - not a good idea I know - but I did come across a possible cause and that could be PID or Pelvic Inflamatory Disease or Disorder - forget which - and I think you were abused right - and this could cause PID - it may have already been ruled out in your case - but it's something

Also there is spalpingitis - that's inflamation in the fallopian tube - I don't know if these things would show up in an ultra sound -

And yes - I do know how you feel - there is something happening and your are sick to death about it and at the same time something might be wrong - and I have been there and know darn well it is a Catch 22 no one wants - and I am sorry this is happening to you

Keeping a journal is one thing - handing it to someone else is quite another - how much honesty is enough and how much is too much - I kept a journal for the last tough and rotten years of my marriage - what a b^tch I was - a real shrew - there is a proverb -

Better to live on the roof than to share a house with a nagging wife

So true - but why does a wife nag?

It was useful reading my journal back to myself after I was divorced - but no way would I have wanted anyone to read that - it was handwritten in notebooks - it took forever to tear it all up - but it was helpful

Sometimes life gets down to one day at a time - one foot after the other - nose to the grind-stone and back to the wall - I could go on - time will pass and something will change I know this for sure - I wish I knew what was causing the pain in your tum - it's a mystery

Dec

Thank you @Former-Member im not feeling better about my health just that I have a plan in place which is a start

@Anony18 not really feeling physically better but having a plan in palce is good. You dont have to apologise to me, people only do what they can. I hope you get well quickly. I ahte having a cold too.

@Former-Member
yeah the mindspot clinic runs for 8 weeks not ten and its one assignment a week but its mainly just a heap of information on how to monitior and control moods and depends on what else they recommend for you to do.
Yeah I dont mind seeing the nurse once and week and the gp but it does bit annoying going to appointments all the time I was talking to Dec about it and in the last 6 months ive had 150 appointments and theres only 130 days in 6 months just ot give you an idea.
I cant afford to go off the tablets I think its the only think keeping me slightly sane, but I dont think they ar working very well so 2 weeks and if im still the same then Im going to change but I will have to go through that really rough patch of being weined off and starting a new one and that process takes 6 weeks.
Your so cute Queeta (hope you dont mind me calling you that)

my precious @Owlunar yes she was pretty hepful today. Yes I still have that flipping pain it really is quite annoying.
Yes I was abused and its not the most pleasant 'first' experience with a guy.
Ive still got all the test to come back from the pelvic exam, and when I get to it the urine and blood tst which im avoiding really badly.
Btw when you give me medical terms I do know most of them (I did the medical terminology course remember lol) but I do appreciate you looking it up for an thinking of me as well. . and no none of these have been ruled out so far the only ruling is that theres no ovarian cysts and nothing wrong with my ovaries or uterus. And also nothing wrong with my stomach, gall bladder, liver or kidneys as they were checked in the ultrasound.
You dont have to be sorry for anthing Dec its part of life I guess not that its enjoyable what so ever.

My whole journal is in on my computer. Ive written it uo on word as thats the only place thats safe and thats only if I my sisters arrent around when im writng it. They are constantly snooping when im on the computer which is super annyoing so I try no to be on anything while they are around except for looking at love hearts or fandngle drawings. I dont really know about handing my journal in after readin a few my gosh they will probably admit me to hospital without my consent as theres pretty scary and horrible things in there so im not too sure. I could probably just give her a few of the pages where there isnt talking of suicide planning on it nor details of SH or other thoughts.

Oh Btw I tagged you in my drawing thread. Its hard to catch you up on here but in short im doing everyone a picture of there name and would like your opinon on how to do yours 🙂

I wihsh I knew what was causing my pain to cause its affecting my back and shoulder as well

Glad a plan is in place @outlander I write a journal of my feelings as well. For me it helps me at times get through the hard times. But I can see how showing it to someone else is tough because it is so personal to you. It is the part of you that you would not like to share with others. I don't know if it is entirely a cold. Just feel so groggy and I am doing alot of things to try get it to miraculously go away!!!

Hi @outlander - not entirely sure as never been exposed to that but from the way you mentioned it, it does sound like she is may be asking you to do that, thinking may assist with the panic attacks down the line.

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