Delusion disorder

Good morning all,

Have just been reading about the careers experience of delusional disorder. My heart goes out to all of you, it really is one of the toughest things to deal watching a loved one going through this.

I am replying as someone who experienced delusional disorder. After 3 years, yes three years of confusion, torture and pain upon myself and loved ones I can say this was the most embaressing and regretful experience I have gone through.

Only now after two psych ward admissions, medication and regular psych therapy sessions have I come to realise what was happening to my mind.

No one was able to convince me otherwise at the strongest point of the delusions. Yes, seemingly intelligent, and caring person, I began to strongly disassociate from my world and was all consumed with the overriding thoughts. I broke down my marriage, isolated myself from many close friends and became extremely suicidal and confused. I'm not sure if any of this helps. Sadly the only person that could assist me out of the delusion was my own decision to eventually try and be well despite still experiencing the delusions. Love and support from my parents and close friends was important and kept me alive until the delusions passed. Many people walked away from me also which made me begin to question my reality and seek assistance. Serious post natal depression and previous mental health issues from a broken childhood I believe contributed to this experience.

I'm in recovery now and all I can say is "wow, how embaressing and painful towards my loved ones". Even though in recovery I understand I had become unwell and part of it isn't my fault but you do wish you were strong enough to not have put yourself and others through this torture.

Sending love to all going through this, it is not an easy thing to do to watch someone you love decline in their mental health to this degree. Hold that hope that recovery is possible but it is something that the person suffering needs to decide, when their whole world breaks down and there is no other answer as to why, except that the delusions had caused these breakdowns and to begin to see them as a created experience from the brain rather than reality

Hello @Amberlulu, @Loulou83, @Demi, @M123, @DeeElysia

how are you today ? sending you hugs and love to hear from you

Hi, your story sounds similar to mine. My partner of 27 years atarted accusing me of having multiple affairs with both people I knew and random strangers about five years ago. I had no idea what this was and why this happened. A couple of years went by and I thought everything was ok, until 6 months ago, I was away working and had a feeling something wasnt right.

I quit my job and told him I was coming back and he told me not to be stupid and I had to stay at the job.

Then he said he knows I have a boyfriend and I have been caught out and he told all my kids I have been having an affair and we are separating. I couldnt even defend myself as I was interstate. I left to go home the next day and was devistated as to what he had told my kids.

He presented a whole lot of ridiculous "evidence" that I proved wrong and stupid, but he doesnt see that and says if I "admit" what I have done, we can go back to normal.

He has been away working for 6 months and I havent spoken to him for months because it always comes back to "me and my boyfriends"

He is a great dad, other than his hate for me and I listen to his phone conversations with our kids, and he sounds completely normal.

He is coming back soon and I am really not looking forward to this, but we have to sort our property matters and look to our future lives apart.

My main question to my self is, will this continue in his life and future relationships and will this get worse.

There is no way he thinks he has a problem.

It is just me 😞

Thanks

I just wanted to hear from any others that have been through this

I have confided in a couple of friends but they dont really understand, I dont blame them I dont understand this myself how someone could go from a loving partner to an unfeeling monster who can look right through me and call me a liar and a s**t.

Hi All and Faithful1 I feel your pain... no-one understand unless they see it with their own eyes.

I wish I had found this forum 3 yrs ago, I looked everywhere for support and to connect with other people who were going through this totally exhausting, heartbreaking, confusing experience!!!

Id like to share my story and support others if I can, below is the short version haha

I wanted to leave my husband of 25yrs and took him to marriage councilling after years of trying to fix things between us. He had anunloving childhood and couldnt express any kind of love or affection etc. and I just gave up on us. Within a week of marriage councillling he changed and became desparate to fix or marriage, this was welcomed but felt odd and exaggerated. i felt very uncomfaortable recieving affection from him after never experiencing it before but embraced it nevertheless.

We were to go on a trip O/S for my brothers wedding in NYC and on the morning we were to leave I woke up with him jumping out of bed racing around the room saying he couldnt go. To cut a very long story short 2 days into our trip he woke up and called the police (we were in LA) told them to come quick, I was having an affair and the hotel room was bugged and I was plotting to have him put in jail or to have him killed.

I have 4 children 3 of them were with us at the time and being teenage boys they pretty much slept through this debacle and were more interested in going to Dennys to eat then wondering where their Father had gone with the police....

Anyway thats were is started and we had to return home after 4 dyas as he kept calling the police during the night. I missed my brothers wedding but was so confused and scared for my husband and what he was doing that we and to return home asap.

For 3 months my husband became more and more deluded and paranoid and in return dangerous. He had never been an emotinal or angry man and now he was very angry and my children and I became frightened.

I was able to eventually find a pyschiatrist who properly diagnosed him with paranoia/delusional disorder and he started taking meds. I saw glimpses of the man he used to be but after 5 weeks on meds he thought he was cured and went off them to become more violent than before and I had to leave with my 2 youngest children my two adult children stayed in the home with him for a while.

Fast forward to now (3yrs later) all my children reside with me for over a year now and have not stayed with him since January 2018. All my children are scared of him as he has at one time or another physically hurt them, my daughter has been trying to see him occassionally till she had to call the police on him last week and now she is done.

My daughter said to me last night it would have been easier if he had just died as the Dad they grew up with has gone but is still physically here, this made me cry.

Eveyday still i wish I could talk to him and help him but he wont listen, believes ive been having affairs and now wants a DNA test to see if the kids are his. I dont have very much communication with him but need to keep calm and in contact as we go through an impossible settlement. He hasnt helped finacially with the kids and we have debt collectors knocking on my door as we own property together but i have very little income. Its such a mess and I feel it is never goign to end, he will ever get help and the children will never get their dad back ..... he is gone!

Thank God for my beautiful children afmily and friends anf forums like these with people suffering as I am x

I too feel you pain. My husband although is medicated he is refusing to accept his illness and wants us to separate as his gut keep telling him not to trust me. He seeing things that he connects as proof that I’m up to something . Unfortunately I overreact to his comments and accusations as my patience is getting poorer.

I feel I’m losing the man I knew.

He feels there’s no solution - his word against my word. He hates that we argue all the time , we can’t communicate and sees we have nothing in common apart from kids.

Id love to chat to others who understand what it’s like to live in this marriage.