sad&stuck

Hi @Zoe7 I'm still here and struggling. I feel like an idiot and feel so so hopeless and empty.

I love Toby what a sweet face. Here is a pic of my new fur baby

You got one @STORMGRL101 - can't wait to see him/her

I've had a pretty horrible few weeks also - literally just held on a couple of times - very close to the edge! So no need for you to feel like an idiot or hopeless and empty by yourself - maybe together we can feel a little better together

Thank goodness I have my fur babies - and now you do too - yea!!!!! Nothing can beat a fur baby cuddle @STORMGRL101

oh @STORMGRL101 such a cutie Is it a boy or girl - and do you have a name you can put on here - otherwise I will just call it CP (CutiePie)

@STORMGRL101 such a gawjus puppy

I love my puppy he is so sweet and loving and has attached himself to me. I feel so guilty for having suicidal thoughts when he would be so confused and sad if I went away and didn't come back. I feel so empty and hopeless about my situation all the time and I feel alone in my struggle. What do I do when I've been told the best thing for me to do is DBT but I'm not ready for it and talking is too hard I get all stressed and go into a dissociative state and sometimes they call an ambulance for me. I've been obsessing over these strange and harmful thoughts I've been having and I can't tell anyone about them and my case worker is trying to help me and find other options for me but it's been 2 weeks since Iv seen her and it's all just too hard

Where did I go wrong for my life to end up like this... I don't even know who I am anymore... more hospital ed visits in the past few months than I can count on my fingers. I'm so tired of it all yet i have to keep going not for the benefit of myself but the benefit of others. Today I've cried a billion tears, felt like my head would explode, wishing it all to go away, wishing I could go away, feeling alone, scared, unlovable, crazy, suicidal.

Hearing you @STORMGRL101

@Former-Member

Hello @STORMGRL101

It sounds like you are going through a really tough time at the moment, I have sent you an email with some crisis numbers for you to reach out too as well as you mentioned feeling suicidal, please check your emails. Keep reaching on the forums if you find it's helpful.

Lunar