i dont really know how to react or feel or what to do..?

Watch about Christian the lion as @Appleblossom suggested. the guy that had him is my cousin, would you believe, and their story illustrates our love for animals, big and small, loving and letting go. I had a horse when I was about 11 or 12 and lost him to tetanus even though he'd had his needles. To lose someone so close, animal or human, leaves us all with intense feelings

I know letting go is hard. After a fire, we had to rehome our beloved cat with no chance of keeping in contact. I know @Former-Member how hard it is!!!

Keeping you in my thoughts. Bb.

Well, @Former-Member I do still think of my animal friends. Afterall they are part of our life story. What I try to do is remember the good things and know deep down that they, like your horse I imagine, loved me as much as I loved them. And feeling loss, unfortunately is part of that love.

Try not to dwell on what we are missing, if you know what I mean. I sometimes find it hard when people just talk about these situations, not meaning to hurt, but not understanding your feelings either. Is That how you feel when your sister talks about your horse. I know it's hard but know that you had a positive influence in his life and, although some people don't believe it, they remember and don't seem to hold any grudges. They too remember the good things.

That's how I have tried to move forward. People say it's just an animal, but I know how important they are. My dog is sometimes my lifeline and when some say he's getting on and won't be around for much longer, I cringe. He means so much to me, as your horse did/does to you.

I know you've had rejections in the past but a last ditch letter, as suggested, explaining your deep feelings for your horse, and the impact he has had on you and you on him might just get a more positive response.

Think about it anyway. Hope this has helped, not too much of a ramble....

Bb

@Baileyboy expressed it really well.

Wow thats amazing re Christian the Lion, yes they were a couple of Aussies visiting London!

I guess there is Born Free and Free Willie as movies to help in the letting go.

Just saying that you will give it a go @Former-Member will help. I was very sad when my cat in Sydney died, I was 9, but I still feel connected with her 50 years later and peaceful when I visit the area where we buried her. In reality the gardeners would have dug her up, as we lived in an inner city area with lots of concrete and few green patches.

Watch Blue Velvet, give yourself time to saturate yourself in your love for the horse and your experiences with her. Letting go is only part of it, its more about coming to terms with today's reality and finding a way to live with it. For you because it is tied up with blended family and past family home properties it IS MORE COMPLICATED, but your creativity will eventually find a way to honour the relationship and be open to new opportunities as they present themselves.

Its good to care, but dont let it cripple you.

hi @Appleblossom

thank you for your advice as well

i think ill write the letter but i dont really know what to put in the letter

any sugggestions @Baileyboy@Appleblossom@Pepsimax@Former-Member@Former-Member