freaking out a bit and need help to stay off forum

Hi @BlueBay, @Decadian@Former-Member@Former-Member@Former-Member@Shaz51

Andy everyone else.

Well I'm actually proud of myself, it turned out to be a horrible time. My boy (dog) has got the same thing a deep tissue infection so has started on antibiotics. The vet assured us there is no proven evidence between cancer and these antibiotics so I guess I need to realise I'm over reacting. But I did have a minor melt down when they told us this, I would say to myself this is ridiculous but the tears would stream down, I got very stressed and snappy and started to get the worst rage but I worked through it without taking the rage out on my partner or anyone. He did cop some of my stress though which then resulted in him going off at me. This time when he was not speaking to me and really shitty I just kept saying to myself as he had over reacted about something "its not my stress, its not my stress" almost like a meditation so I wouldnt take on his meltdown as well. It started off really bad and I was thinking he would ruin the last few months but in a day with me acting "sort of normal" not getting shitty at him and not pushing his buttons within a day things were back to normal which never happens - usually carries on for atleast a week!

So I know I can get through without the forums or anyone's help through a very very stressful situation with lots of triggers. I think whats effecting me the most is that my confidence in myself is starting to grow.

I hope everyone else is ok and going well!

@Change123 So great to hear you going from strength to strength in the hard times.

keep taking good care of you 💜🤗

Thanks @Former-Member

One thing I have come to realise is getting a hold on BPD doesnt mean you dont have the lows anymore its just how I'm reacting to it and coping with it

Wow @Change123

We will be here for you if you just want to have a chat my friend , soo keep in touch xx

keep taking good care of you 💜🤗

Thanks @Shaz51

I feel like I'm sort of seeing the "light" so to speak and being able to look at myself from another perspective now.

To be honest I would have never thought when I was in the depth of my darkness that I could get this far, now getting there and so far maintaining it makes me more persistent in ensuring I dont slide completely down that slippery slope. Liek I said I'm learning I cant avoid being triggered or upset etc as thats life but I'm learning to deal with it better and feeling stronger for it.

@Change123 xx