Songs That Resonate With You

My siblings claim that when our mother had cancer, I took charge and didn't allow anyone else to help. I distinctly remember him saying that he wouldn't be available on all these certain days because he was seeing movies as part of the French film festival. My sister's husband had just bought a $90000 boat so she claimed that she couldn't take time off work. She also insisted that Mum could just take a taxi to the hospital because if we helped her too much she would become needy. Mum was so flustered that I assuered her that I would be there for every appointment. Now my brother's recollection is that all I ever did for her was some shopping.

When I returned to Australia, they were in the throes of moving her into aged care. I asked Mum if that was what she really wanted and that I would take care of her. She said that my sibs thought it was best. Never wanting to make waves, she agreed. When I visited her at the facility, she would tell me how much she missed her home and her garden.

So I feel awful that I ever relinquished her care. Lots of guilt there.

Rant over - good to get that off my chest.

I understand how it is good to get things out @soul, you have been there plenty for me so happy to listen.

While our circumstances are different I can appreciate the feeligs of guilt over decisions made but I dont think it was unreasonable to do something for yourself when your siblings were to help out. And you had done so much already...

@soul

Things are what they are. You cannot change the past nor can you control other peoples bad choices and behaviours. Meditate and sleep heaps.

Breath in, Breath out....every cloud has a silver lining.

I'm thinking of you.