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Day too day life -circumstances

eudemonismSenior Contributor

Day too day life -circumstances

Hi @ whom it may concern. I am feeling incredibly overwhelmed bye my circumstances and stuff like motivation which I suppose you could call depression.

Feeling very foggy, lethargic, drowsy, lightheaded and rather helpless against my circumstances. Which medication probably contributes to. Not sure what too do or who to be angry at. It's destroying me. -and most importantly what do I do too help myself or who do I turn too so they can help?

I slept into 11am and it was because it was easier then facing today. And now I'm up and have had a couple coffees and a few smokes and brekky. -I'm thinking... what am I meant to do??? In this terrible state of consciousness I am in??? Can't really go for a walk. Cause I don't feel well enough. And don't really feel like visiting anyone. Ignored a call from a number my phone don't don't recognize. Cause afraid of dilemma an drama and just don't feel well. And I'm thinking might as well just stay at home the whole day.

I pushed a friend away yesterday. Too protect myself. A friend who is on the same depot Injection. And in the same housing set up. And the mhs tried to get me on the same anti depressants as him. And I'm thinking. It's a set up bye the mhs and support worker sw and I ain't really happy about it. -it's their idea of social rehabilitation.

I've weighed up my options. Visit someone. Family. Friends. Or go for a drive and walk with dog. (Just don't feel like it) not a great deal else to do.

Was dealing with thoughts of guilt and blame for things going wrong and people dying this morning. (Common theme) and dealing with negative projections from others. And negative opinions about my projection. -as if they were all sitting in a cinema where my life story (reality) and my thoughts (mental in my head) were being played. -it's like they can all see it... and what they think and feelabout it. Effects me greatly. -it's hard rule out it not being true once I consider real life Instincts.

Will stop writing now.

Worried about my cat and dog. Because they need looking after and it just seems to hard. Especially the dog with walking and stuff.

Food for thought. Give me what ya got.


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eudemonismSenior Contributor

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@utopia I just passed them and seen them looking at me in my car. Dealing with them is the last thing I want to do.

And yea. Reading is good. There is loads of literature out there about all sorts of stuff. Personally I find it takes me away from something or takes me deeper into understanding about something. Plus I do my own writing.

Any reason you are particularly Interested in aboriginal stuff?

My grandma. Grandad. From dad's side. Have told me stories about dealing with local indigenous people from up the coast a bit from years ago. And they said they recorded on tape some of his singing but unfortunately lost the tape.


I find the culture very interesting. Especially the language and traditions side of things. It's something that has been lost and the world and their entire culture is definitely worse of for it.

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eudemonismSenior Contributor

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@Mazarita I'm thinking I need to push some people away and start protecting my environment again. Too often the first thing I am exposed to is people knocking at my door and looking for smokes. And they are rubbing off on me in the process.

It's just not good.

I told the support worker I don't wanna be involved with any of the other clients for this exact reason. And now I'm in the midst of being caught up in all the other clients lives. And it's just not helping me or doing me any good. It's actually bringing me down.

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MazaritaSenior Contributor

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Good morning, @eudemonism. That sounds like a rough start to a day, people knocking at your door looking for smokes. With my support worker, I only get involved in what I want to. She doesn't insist on things at all. I think it's important that we, the client, are in the drivers seat when it comes to this kind of support. We are the ones who have to live with the outcome of whatever we engage with. So sorry there are these housing and social issues bringing you down. I do like to meet others with mental illness through activities my support worker recommends, but only the things I see as genuinely helpful to my life. And I don't easily invite people into my actual home life for some of the same reasons as you. Hoping things look up for you today.

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utopiaSenior Contributor

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@eudemonism. Such a shame that your grandparents lost that tape of the singing.
It's just been a general interest of mine for years. But the past year I've been reading a lot. And I've seen some Water Wells & that has piqued my interest even more.
If you are interested - there is a thread called Aboriginal Learnings that you may like to lookat.

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eudemonismSenior Contributor

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Afternoon @Mazarita I hear what ya saying. Perhaps I can politely ask them to come around at a decent hour. And be prepared to offer them help where I can. While I still protect myself and my home.

And it's gotten to the point with my support worker where it's a waste of time catching up with him. Because it's always when the other clients around. Andseveral times I been asked if I wanted to come for a drive with the support worker at 9am when he clocks on bye another client who was already at my place.

They've gone and grouped us together ane categorized us (me) through labels/circumstances and medication types. And it's definitely not my cup of tea.

The mryad of appointments and professional people I'll have to deal with to get any significant changes is beyond me to navigate. Despite the obvious facts.

I'm very ambitious and have a high zest level for life. And being plotted in this position and left to my own devices and being directed bye the professional opinion has become very irritating. It's not good enough...

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eudemonismSenior Contributor

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Hey @utopia hope you've had a reasonable day and things are looking up for ya?

I've thought to myself many times. What an amazing piece if nature Australia would of been before western influence came along.

The land in its raw Beauty and supporting human life. Untouched bye the rest of the world. -I know there is lots of magnificent places tobe seen out there. But some days sitting on the park bench is as far as I make it.

I have basically lived in one place my whole life and seen very little of the broader country side. -one day I may do some traveling and sight seeing.

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utopiaSenior Contributor

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@eudemonism. That's the good thing about Australia - you don't need to travel to be able to appreciate the beauty of mother nature.
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