GonzetteCasual Contributor
Unsure
I'm unsure if I'm in the right forum. I've struggling with addictions for most of my life and I'm 7 days free from weed and 5 days off the cigarettes. I just feel so lost. I'm not sure if this is the right place to talk about my addictions. I have a lot of self hatred and I have a physiologist that will see me hopefully next week that will bulk bill. It's so hard to get professional mental health if you've no money to spare. It would be nice to find the core reasons for my self hatred and my addictive personality. It's so hard when your mind is always so loud and I have impulses I can't seem to control. This is why I hate myself so much. I know better and I shouldn't be doing it but I go do it anyway. Its a viscous circle that I keep spinning in. I have reached out for help now as I can't keep going on like this and need to change. I feel out of control atm and just needed to get this out.
I just feel so depressed today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a little easier.