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DogMan's Journal

DogMan's Journal

I seems that weekend coffee threads are a thing of the past. Which were my main space to share about myself

I thought I'd start my own thread. My username is a reference to the AFL team. I don't have a pet dog. I love dogs, but live in a small unit with 2 cockatiels (Collectively known as "The Chook Mans")

I've been in the mental health care system since 2003. At that time, I really hadn't seen any doctor for 12 years. The family who adopted me in my adolescence never once took me to a doctor

2003, during my honours year in a Fine Arts degree, I presented at uni health services in a mess. I said that I was embarrassed to be there, I requested a female doctor. So I think they assumed I had issues with my junk. And she quite taken aback when I mentioned psychotic symptoms

I was referred to CATT. Lots of it was done by phone. I had an in person appointment with the CMHT. The psychiatrist there said she suspected Schizophrenia. We negotiated no hospital as long as I gained weight prior to next appointment (I had some funny ideas about food and farming)

The antipsychotics made me very hungry. So that was rather easy

I did manage to graduate. My 4th year marks weren't great. Then I sort of accidentally met someone who knew someone looking for casual staff in childcare. So I applied and worked in childcare. Progressing up through ful time permanent staff

I moved a lot in Canberra, but did okay for years

2009 I had a big relapse. I took 6 weeks off work. I did have that much leave accrued. Since I rarely took leave. But when I returned, the dynamic changed and I was on the outer. My job became untenable

I moved to regional victoria and enrolled in a Master of IT (A conversion masters. So similar to undergrad but shorter. Which is possible if you have a degree in another discipline)

Mid way through, my housemate left chips cooking on the stove and accidentally burned my house down

So I took an early exit point of a Postgraduate Certificate. I contacted my mum, who I had had very little to do with since I was adopted in the early 90s (It's a long story)

I briefly stayed with mum by the beach

My sister got divorced around the same time. So I found somewhere to live with my sister in Melbourne. It didn't last long, the landlord developed the property into apartments

A period of couch surfing and homelessness followed

My (bio) mum's health had deteriorated and doctors recommended she didn't live alone. We moved into Social Housing together. We moved here in 2012, mum died in 2024, which was apparently her record for staying in one place. I'm still in the same unit and it's my record too

Lockdown broke me. I've seen various outpatient services. And professionals have played "Musical Chairs" with my diagnosis specifics. They all agree on Schizophrenia and Seasonal Affective Disorder. But other additions include OCD, PTSD, OSDD, ASD and others

I've been with my current psychologist since 2022. Which is a record for me. I've had longer dealings with psychiatrists, but not psychologists. I don't currently have a psychiatrist. But my GP formerly worked in psychiatry in the UK

My Psychologist is trying to get me into a psychiatrist. They keep deeming me "Outside their scope". I'm currently being referred to the local CFMHS Forensic Service. The "Harm OCD" is currently being viewed as actually potentially dangerous

I do a monthly zoom peer group for voice hearers. I think next Monday is our next meeting

My team want me to apply for the NDIS. They actually signed me up without my consent in 2018. I was grandfathered onto the scheme from it's predecessors. I opted out straight away

So that's a bit about me

@fluttershy1 @taali @cuddlebear @chasingsunsets @missgremlin @dimity @appleblossum @nala2022 @bow @captain24 @jynx @smilinggecko

I don't really know who to tag. I've generally aimed for active people who are generally nice to me

Picture of chook mans:

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Late beach walk

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Great shots @DogMan79 .

I think your gp likes you, not a bad thing.

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@Dimity @Appleblossom

I've had a good week

GP Tuesday, including med change. Psychologist Thursday went well

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That's good @DogMan79 . i'd wondered how you got on on Thursday. I trust the chook mans are well.

You said you'd wait til Spring for the med change. Do the seasons make a difference? I'm hit hard every year when temperatures warm up to low 20s and higher, and have to re-acclimatise. I blame one of my meds.

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@dimity yes, seasonal affective disorder here for the most part. Hence waiting until spring to tweak meds

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Oh @DogMan79 Beautiful pics. I used to love walking on beaches like that. It was too long ago. I have a few beaches 20 minutes away. Cant go this week, but will put it on my list.

I am glad the week went well, and you had a decent session with the new psychiatrist.

CAT team were involved for me in 2000 and a few times til 2016, but honestly I got sick of their appproach, and they diddled me around re referrals and PARC etc. So I keep away from them, now. I have been with the same psychiatrist for 9 years at session every 2 months. He is not mindblowingly brilliant; is very repetitive, but decent and not done the wrong thing to me. It has helped have the stability of knowing him over the years, with my situations with my son. I also have linked in with quite a few Lived Experience groups online, which has helped anchor me.

I have had a good few days overall, but a few rocky bits. Today I did a Comedy workshop for 1 1/2 hours. Am singing in the morning, and have a peer group in the arvo. Keeping busy, but enough wriggle room in between activities.

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I can't remember who asked about the ladder progress. Potentially @Chasingsunsets but I don't know

Ollie made it up, after 3 months

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Hey there @DogMan79!! Oh my gosh what a brave boy getting up there hehehe!! I bet he was proud of himself!! Love love love the update!! So sorry for late reply!!! Remind me what your other boys name is? How’s your day? Hope your coffee was on point, I know you like you coffee too!! ☕️

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@Chasingsunsets

Other (Older) boy is Quack. Years ago, I worked with toddlers. Including a girl with triple residency. To maintain that, she legally had to move countries every 6 months. So being only 2, she hadn't mastered any one language yet. And if she saw a bird, she'd point and say "Quack, quack" Hence his name

Ollie was names after the Australian Painter John Olsen

Lots of coffee, yes

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Yes, I remember you telling me know and quack is the more adventurous one or is it Ollie? Love both their names. I wonder what equipment you are planning now since Ollie has mastered the ladder 🤣

oh yes me too I needed a strong one today☕️! @DogMan79 

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