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DogMan's Journal

DogMan's Journal

I seems that weekend coffee threads are a thing of the past. Which were my main space to share about myself

I thought I'd start my own thread. My username is a reference to the AFL team. I don't have a pet dog. I love dogs, but live in a small unit with 2 cockatiels (Collectively known as "The Chook Mans")

I've been in the mental health care system since 2003. At that time, I really hadn't seen any doctor for 12 years. The family who adopted me in my adolescence never once took me to a doctor

2003, during my honours year in a Fine Arts degree, I presented at uni health services in a mess. I said that I was embarrassed to be there, I requested a female doctor. So I think they assumed I had issues with my junk. And she quite taken aback when I mentioned psychotic symptoms

I was referred to CATT. Lots of it was done by phone. I had an in person appointment with the CMHT. The psychiatrist there said she suspected Schizophrenia. We negotiated no hospital as long as I gained weight prior to next appointment (I had some funny ideas about food and farming)

The antipsychotics made me very hungry. So that was rather easy

I did manage to graduate. My 4th year marks weren't great. Then I sort of accidentally met someone who knew someone looking for casual staff in childcare. So I applied and worked in childcare. Progressing up through ful time permanent staff

I moved a lot in Canberra, but did okay for years

2009 I had a big relapse. I took 6 weeks off work. I did have that much leave accrued. Since I rarely took leave. But when I returned, the dynamic changed and I was on the outer. My job became untenable

I moved to regional victoria and enrolled in a Master of IT (A conversion masters. So similar to undergrad but shorter. Which is possible if you have a degree in another discipline)

Mid way through, my housemate left chips cooking on the stove and accidentally burned my house down

So I took an early exit point of a Postgraduate Certificate. I contacted my mum, who I had had very little to do with since I was adopted in the early 90s (It's a long story)

I briefly stayed with mum by the beach

My sister got divorced around the same time. So I found somewhere to live with my sister in Melbourne. It didn't last long, the landlord developed the property into apartments

A period of couch surfing and homelessness followed

My (bio) mum's health had deteriorated and doctors recommended she didn't live alone. We moved into Social Housing together. We moved here in 2012, mum died in 2024, which was apparently her record for staying in one place. I'm still in the same unit and it's my record too

Lockdown broke me. I've seen various outpatient services. And professionals have played "Musical Chairs" with my diagnosis specifics. They all agree on Schizophrenia and Seasonal Affective Disorder. But other additions include OCD, PTSD, OSDD, ASD and others

I've been with my current psychologist since 2022. Which is a record for me. I've had longer dealings with psychiatrists, but not psychologists. I don't currently have a psychiatrist. But my GP formerly worked in psychiatry in the UK

My Psychologist is trying to get me into a psychiatrist. They keep deeming me "Outside their scope". I'm currently being referred to the local CFMHS Forensic Service. The "Harm OCD" is currently being viewed as actually potentially dangerous

I do a monthly zoom peer group for voice hearers. I think next Monday is our next meeting

My team want me to apply for the NDIS. They actually signed me up without my consent in 2018. I was grandfathered onto the scheme from it's predecessors. I opted out straight away

So that's a bit about me

@fluttershy1 @taali @cuddlebear @chasingsunsets @missgremlin @dimity @appleblossum @nala2022 @bow @captain24 @jynx @smilinggecko

I don't really know who to tag. I've generally aimed for active people who are generally nice to me

Picture of chook mans:

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@dimity I'm quite isolated in general. So it is good for me to connect once a month

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I had my long acting injection this morning. So tomorrow will be a rest day

Therapy Thursday. I gave permission for a provisional psychologist to sit in again

I don't understand how it works that health professionals make me paranoid, but I've never had an issue with students sitting in on sessions

I'm generally a rather laconic client, and don't entirely understand what she gets out of the experience

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@DogMan79 I've sometimes felt a gp was performing for the student observer, especially once when the male gp made what I felt were sexist and belittling remarks to me and the female student laughed.

Hope you feel ok after the depot.

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Hiya @DogMan79 love your thread 😊. Thanks for the tag. Look at your two little legends 🦜 have they used the little stairs you got them that you put near the tv?

I hope your day has been ok today ☀️

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@Chasingsunsets Ollie (On the right in the first picture in the thread) has gone as far as the top of the cabinet. But not across the cabinet to the TV or the ladder up the actual TV

I have still only watched part of one episode of one show, two months into my netflix subscription

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Oh I see @DogMan79 ollie is the most adventurous! I see you haven’t been watching much Netflix, how’s your art work going? 😊

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@chasingsunsets very little art happening. I had this ageing under an autumn tree. I just sealed the leaves on with resin

And that's the state of the pet portrait for a friend. Which I hope to finish before christmas

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Sounds great @DogMan79 i always appreciate everyone’s artistic talents because I am not very arty myself hehe 😊.

Hope you have a good night

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I had therapy this morning

An interesting point was my psychologist suggesting approaching paranoid thoughts through the use of language. If you think and speak words like "Secrecy" then it'll self-fulfill to some extent. So alter the language

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Interesting thought re the power and nuance of language @DogMan79 .

For me thought, spoken, longhand and typed/edited expression are all different. I'm inarticulate verbally. Typing offers opportunities to refine and reshape. Longhand is stream of consciousness.

Do you journal? I've tried. Not consistently.

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