Am I just not wanted?

Thanks for sharing @EternalFlower

I didn’t think of my safety plan. Yours is different to mine, there is no way I’m going to the supermarket there is way too many people that I know! 😜 That happens in small country towns. I will use it though. Thanks for the reminder.

Im replaying past trauma and I see my psych next week so I hoping she can help with ways to manage it. She will just laugh and say I told you so! About the cPTSD! Since I’ve been denying it for so long.

@Captain24 @Bow @EternalFlower @Bunniekins @MissGremlin

@Bow @Captain24

Ive said more in post I’ve have to share as screenshot

I hear the both of you and am the same. I’m done, finished and gone

means I have no supports or people to talk to.

feel leaving the forums is my only option though

@Flutterbug9 I'm still waiting for the pic to be approved. I just wanted to say that you're not alone sweet, i know the forums are hard to navigate and it's been a huge trigger for alot of us. But we're all in this together and if we keep hanging on and riding things out then hopefully once things are sorted we'll be able to connect again like we used to. Sending you so much love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

is more than the current status of the forums @MissGremlin

Captain mentioned an email and my decision relates to email I received few weeks ago.

wording of email that triggered me. I’ve tried to block the wording in my mind but it hasn’t worked.

part of wording sounded like blame for something was laid fully at my feet.

its left me not feeling safe and constantly worrying what to say and not to say on the forums.

i don’t need that extra stress

currently dealing with family related things that no one knows about including one cousin having recently been in ICU for few days after being found unconscious. He has now been moved to oncology ward where it is unknown if he will ever return home from as he is struggling to swallow

worrying about younger cousin who, as i told when I was in mid primary is “like the younger brother I will never have”. Due to status of his heart his cardiologist has forbidden him to drive a car without someone being in the car with him who can also drive.

@Flutterbug9 I'm sorry there's so much going on for you behind the scenes aswell sweet.

I can understand how much wording can affect us even if it's not intentional those words still stick. I'm so sorry that it's has such a huge impact on you, you're feelings are valid though. Try to be gentle with yourself sweetheart ❤️.

I can really relate to the worry of knowing what to say and what not to say, this comes from previous bad experiences that have left a lasting mark.

I'm sitting with you sweet and sending lots of love and hugs ❤️. It's completely ok if being here is too much at the moment, you need to do what's best for you. No matter what you're still loved so much and will always have a place here if you want/need it ❤️.