Feeling not so great

Hiya @MissGremlin @EternalFlower @Nala2022 @Cuddlebear @Bunniekins @Snowie @Shaz51 @AuntGlow @RiverSeal @Taali @heartathome @Jynx @hopeful_hannah @Honeymoon @Tolly @Chasingsunsets @NightFury @DogMan79 @MindfulMango @SunsetSunrise@TAB - hope you are all well.

things have been a mess since last night all I wanna do is hide but I can’t I’ve barely slept, everything is overwhelmed & overstimulating me, I’ve been trying to hold myself together which I still am but it’s hard because I have to act like everything is okay when really it isn’t. Got my music on so that’s been helping, nova is playing with my feet and bringing me her toys so I can throw them for her.

hour by hour today, got a support worker which will be helpful, we are going to go get Starbucks together. Play skipbo and chill out. Also need to get nova more toys to throw around hahah.

So sorry you're not travelling well @Fluttershy1

Sleep deprivation is awful.

I truly hope you can recharge today, but it's okay if you don't you're always welcome to share whatever you're comfortable with here

Do you have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep. Are you having disturbing dreams and feelings?

I am here with you my friend 🧡

Love @Taali

nice pics @Fluttershy1 hope things not too bad for you

@Taali - I had to take brother to hospital last night, it was just a long night triggering because I know what it’s like and he was nervous and I know what it’s like because we had to go from our local hospital to the children’s hospital which was further, I couldn’t sleep once I was back because I was so wired.

I slept for like 3-4 hours then I’ve been awake since, I’ve been playing my phone and listening to music really loudly, playing with nova as she woke me up lol by jumping on my head, I’m also like freaking out because it’s my birthday next Friday and I always struggle around my birthday because it’s like I’m another year older etc. it’s just a lot.

am safe

Hoping I can keep it at bay @TAB - I’m coping atm.

am safs

I totally get the birthday thing.

Never had a good apart my 40th which I planned for myself.

Like I told my psychiatrist recently it's just a number and doesn't define me. OR YOU!

What did your brother have to go to the hospital for?

And what music are you listening to?

Care to share?

Go gently ✨️ Taali

@Taali - it’s a mix at the moment so some Billie Eilish, missy elliot, lady Gaga etc, just got it on shuffle.

he injured himself but one hospital wouldn’t treat him because he is a child but we had to go to a children’s hospital then.

it’s just overwhelming the whole thing and then I haven’t been sleeping properly in ages. It’s all just hitting me.

@@Fluttershy1

I understand the need for sleep.

You need to get some rest at the moment.

Are you able to have a nap or does that mean you cannot sleep at night.

Do you and your brother live with your parents?

Are you able to seek medical help for sleep?

I know that you're overwhelmed right now and wish I could find a way to help you

Suffice to say that you're feelings are absolutely okay and understandable.

Please take care of you.

Love @Taali

Take it easy @Fluttershy1 

@Taali - if I slept during the day I won’t sleep at night, I’ve always had trouble sleeping, I’ve tried asking for sleeping meds to help but they refuse, I still live at home so does bro, but I have a bungalow out the back which is always nice. So I just hang out there most of the time.

i was everywhere with my support worker today I couldn’t just let my emotions out I had to mask them, it was a lot because it was hitting hard and I didn’t know what I wanted etc. now I’m just like what did I do.

my support coordinator has got me booked in with a psychologist on Tuesday with someone new and I’m dreading it. I don’t even wanna go. But I know I need to. I just can’t bring myself to go to someone new.

im safe.