Riding a wave

@CheerBear Oh I totally TOTALLY get that. It is a bazillion percent ok to do nothing. We should never do anything when we are in lizard brain. There are very few things in this world that need to be acted on right now. I am working at doing nothing when I have super big feelings. For example, I might write an email, but then save it as a draft. Nope, we should never do things when we are in lizard brain!

I am actually working super hard at training myself that when I have the feeling that I have to do something NOW, that is the cue to WAIT. I tell myself that the I-must-do-something-right-now feeling always passes, just like all other feelings. And once it has passed, THEN it is time to think about the next step. So...it's like I'm working at riding the I-must-do-something-right-now wave in the same way that I ride the waves of grief, suicidal ideation, frustration etc.

I'm guessing something has happened to make you freeze @CheerBear. It's ok to freeze. It is a safety response that our clever brains know how to do. Breathe, listen to your inside, and know that it is a bazillion percent ok to do nothing. You've had a trillion previous experiences of freezing and then later de-freezing such that then you know what to do. And I am 100% certain that you will always do what is in the best interests of you and your LF. Whatever it is that has made your brain freeze, you've got this!

Thank you SO much for understanding @Phoenix_Rising. You understand so well.

I think sometimes my big feelings feel so much like giant fear and maybe they're not but they feel like they are. Giant fear has been the cause of sooooo much broken brain that I fear the feeling of giant fear. It makes me go bang and jolt and pop. I need to let the feeling pass so I can understand what it actually is that I am feeling before I do anything.

I really like that there are ways we can kind of hit pause on things so we can let feelings pass before doing. Thank you for reminding me of that 🙂

@CheerBear we appear to have cross-posted...and yet kind-of said the same thing. Have you done whatever you need to do in order to be able to come back to the brain-freezing thing later? If so, then you can let it go now until your brain de-freezes.

@CheerBear you made me giggle by saying that I show you all how to press the pause button often. Trust me, I don't ALWAYS do it - it's a work in progress.

Something else just made me giggle too. You are currently struggling because your brain is frozen, right? Yet at other times you struggle because your brain is melted. We seriously need to try to figure out the optimum temperature for your brain to be at!!!

I am seeing TTT at 10am. I am SUPER looking forward to it. I feel sad sometimes when other Forumites talk about being anxious re. seeing their psych. I'm never anxious going to see TTT. The only bit I find anxiety provoking is the waiting in the waiting room bit.

@CheerBear I am giggling all over again at the image of your LF coming to the surface. Do you realise that it is almost a year since that happened? We have certainly had some adventures together-but-not over the past year haven't we!

Are the LF stirring at your place yet? Are they on holidays? I think the holidays are different across states at the moment. This coming Friday is the last day of term here in NSW.

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Haha yeah somewhere between on fire, melted and frozen is probably the way to go @Phoenix_Rising.

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@CheerBear I was contemplating what the middle ground is between melted and frozen, and I've decided that it's kind-of a slurry of crushed ice. So...for optimal functioning, I think you need your brain to be a slurpee.

It was the 21/4 that the CATTs were called @Phoenix_Rising and that everything went extra bananas for me. Which means it was early May that the fish surfaced in a whirlpool 😆 It's been an incredible year.

Puffer fish and clown fish are now up. They get up early and play their devices together, often in my bed. It's their get along time which usually ends once they're up and properly moving (so I like to go as long as it can).

We have one more week of holidays left, but they were off a week earlier because we went away. It's funny to imagine the Easter break not being on the holidays where you are.

Do you have anything planned after you see TTT? Have you started baby dragon?

Adding that Yes! Slurpee brain could definitely work Phoenix_rising! It's one of our favourite treats and something we do when things get wonky in our world. We had way too many slurpees when we were living at a home when we didn't have a home. Slurpees always make things better 😁

@CheerBear I have a super funny picture in my brain of puffer fish and clown fish getting along while semi-conscious, only to start attacking each other once they step off your bed.

Yes, it was odd having easter outside of holidays. There was Good Friday, and then two more weeks of my volunteering gig (didn't make last Friday but plan to make this one) and then the holidays.

I will take a wander around the shops or something after I see TTT. She is about half-an-hour's drive away so while I'm over that way I tend to visit shops or whatever I need to do in that suburb.

I have started baby dragon. I think I'm going to need to ask some questions over there -->. It turns out this is an intermediate pattern and I'm not sure I'm up to intermediate. I FINALLY figured out the first bit after a few failed attempts, but now I'm stuck regarding what another bit means. This is the pattern I'm following: https://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/bb-dragon It's one you can download for free. I'm stuck on row 18 of the head.

My tummy is now telling me it is breakfast time so I'm going to jump out of Forum Land. I superly duperly enjoyed having an early morning coffee with you.