Riding a wave

@Phoenix_Rising I am here, just juggling lots of balls at once 🙂

I hear you, you do matter and there are a lot of people here hoping you can hear that.

@Zoe7 @Former-Member @CheerBear great support guys, thank you 🙂

I try so hard. I used my calm voice in the email. I waited days for a reply. I've tried. I've tried and I've tried and I've tried and I've tried. But at every single turn I get shut down. It has been almost THREE MONTHS since the wrongness of the wrong and NO ONE will help me work through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need help to process it. I NEED HELP AND THERE IS NONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know this huge wave is massive and all consuming but we are not leaving you on here - we have been with you and will be with you as you work your way through this. No-one can change the wrongness of the wrong little turtle - it has happened

All we can do is look at this moment in time and in this moment you are really hurting - we hear that @Phoenix_Rising and we are sitting here with you.

@Former-Member but they can't help me because I'm not allowed to talk about it here - shhhhhhhhhhhh don't tell Phoenix_Rising. And no one who COULD help me wants to talk about it. Why oh why oh why won't anyone TALK about it??????????????????

@Zoe7 I don't want to CHANGE the wrongness of the wrong, I simply want to TALK about it and have a chance to PROCESS it. I want to be heard and validated. I want help to heal the bits that CAN be healed. Some of it could be healed if someone would just be open to TALKING about it. But no one is. Why can't we just TALK about it??????????????????

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We're here for you,

hold on ....

I understand that you are presently needing things to happen straight away - andtalking to TTT is not possibly - and although you cannot discuss exactly what has happened- you can continue to write how you feel about it - if that is all you have for now then that is what you can do.

and as @Former-Member said @Phoenix_Rising - you are stuck with us on here - because we do care and because you do matter to us.

Keep 'talking' here - we are listening and know it is super, super hard for you to not be able to talk talk to anyone

I know I"m coming in late and don't know much of what's going on for you, but I just wanted to let you know I'm sorry you're in a position where you have something you need to talk about and nobody is willing or able to talk it through with you. I've been there and it's not a nice place to be.

Could you try calling a hotline like Lifeline, Blue Knot, or the Suicide CallBack Service? I know those are probably not ideal (though I'e heard REALLY good things about BK, but that depends if the wrong is related to their specialised topic) but I wanted to throw them out there as a maybe option anyway. I know they're not the same as talking to someone who knows you already, too, which can be hard.

Either way, know that I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. No tokenism, just genuine empathy and compassion for a turtle in distress.

I don't matter, I don't matter, I don't matter, I don't matter, I don't matter, I don't matter. Twenty four million Australians in this country and only one who isn't allowed to call the HC. I followed all the rules.

I don't matter. My "I need help" statement doesn't work. I am invisible, I am worthless.