Goodnight @Shaz51, @CherryBomb and anyone else hanging out on the shore. I still don't know how to bounce back from my latest dumping by a psychologist. This is taking a very long time...and there is no sign of it abating anytime soon. The whole saga is such a horrible replication of oh-so-many previous experiences. How can I still be repeating the pattern of twenty years ago? How can I have so much more insight, so much more self-awareness, and so many more tools in my toolkit, and yet still get smashed when all I was trying to do was get help to fix my muddled brain? How can I get dumped by a psychologist for exhibiting the very behaviour I was there to get help with? How am I ever supposed to heal the muddle if people dump me because I have the muddle????
Thank you for not thinking I'm bad. Thank you for believing that I truly am always trying to do my best to manage my big feelings - even if my best is sometimes so hopelessly inadequate, I get dumped by a psychologist! Thank you for not seeing me as demanding, manipulative, and utterly selfish, difficult, annoying, exhausting to be with, and scary. Thank you for believing in me.
I'm going to snuggle in my shell now and feel super safe knowing that @CherryBomb is keeping watch over the ocean and there are also lots of other people along the shore. @CherryBomb, knowing you are watching over the ocean makes me feel super snuggly and safe. That works much better for me than a hug. I don't need you to hug me - I just need to feel safe that I'm not alone in my muddle. 
Night.
