Riding a wave

@Faith-and-Hope I should be going to bed but my big feelings are giant and I'm not even remotely sleepy. NikNik is going to be able to unmuddle the muddle isn't she F&H? All I have to do is be superly duperly brave and stay on the pause button for thirteen sleeps? This is so so so SO hard F&H.

I hear and see and feel your world of pain @Phoenix_Rising. It took me ages but I think I got it right - 2 more sleeps, not including tonight and it will be in the single digit countdown. You're doing amazingly well at sitting. It is so hard. It hurts.

I get it with Sheldon.

I'm about to melt not in a blanket because it is too hot, but with one close by so I can still touch it. You've got this and we've got this.

Hi @Phoenix_Rising .....

I am sure NikNik will help to sort it all back out ..... but she is also supported by her team, and even in NikNik’s absence I can see that changes have started to work their way forward ......

I am seeing the mods becoming more present on the forums, now that we have spoken up about needing to feel a sense of equality and their involvement and presence here as a part of what makes the forums feel safe for us .....

And I am seeing forumites responding well in return, welcoming their greater presence here .....

I am seeing mods introduce themselves as regulars on the mod team, and others who have given an insight into their personal reasons for absence or change in their involvement.

This is all comforting to me in terms of the great pause that is happening here ..... I hope it is comforting to others too. It is telling me that we are being listened to with all the power that can be brought to bear until NikNik’s return, when further dialogue and team decisions will be made ..... with a greater sense of being informed on this side of the screen, I would expect .....

I am also seeing huddling happening ..... which helps me as well ..... and I hope others too .....

This is not all the answers to the muddle of the other week ..... and other smaller spills that have contributed since ..... but in the spirit of trying to work things out to a better level of functioning, I think the mods are trying to help us to sit with the great pause.

Do you want to see who might be watching over the ocean tonight ? We can ask .....

Thinking of you @Phoenix_Rising ..... feeling it too .....

🌿🐢

@Phoenix_Rising ..... I have turned the lights on on the pier ..... I will sleep here tonight. Anyone up to huddling with me is welcome .....

’Night little turtle ...... 🌙✨🐢

Agreed .... 🌿

I'm going to head out of Forum Land early tonight. I simply have nothing left in the tank at the moment. Staying perched on the pause button is taking every bit of energy that I have. I so very VERY badly want to talk it all through and I'm getting scared that even when NikNik comes home, that isn't going to happen. Talking it all through would help SO MUCH. I feel shut down, which makes me feel super disempowered, alone, and afraid.

I think I will probably keep sleeping out on the ocean for a while now. I'm so super overloaded, and being out on the ocean helps me to feel calmer. Where are you sleeping tonight @Former-Member? Nest, underwater cave, TOR, or somewhere else entirely???

This is so so so SO hard!!!!

@Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member are any of you watching over the ocean tonight?

@CheerBear you made me giggle with your attempt to put a positive spin on the countdown. I think you will find that TONIGHT it is 2 more sleeps, not including tonight, and it will be in the single digit countdown. Tonight it is 12 sleeps. After that we will have 11 & 10, and then we will get to single digits. Therefore, not including tonight, it is 2 more sleeps and then it will be the single digit countdown. Poor CheerBear, I know you would have put a super lot of thought into that, and I have such a funny picture in my brain of a little carebear counting on her fingers and toes to figure it out. Thank you for caring enough to try so hard.

Twelve sleeps. We are out of the teens now, and tonight is the eve of the eve of single-digit eve.

Good night Forum Land.