Riding a wave

@Former-Member has come to watch over the ocean tonight @Phoenix_Rising but right now I suspect she is dealing with someone else's muddle. I know patience isn't your strong point (an understatement hey) but I am here still watching you ride the waves and I am sure she will return when she is able to little turtle.

I so very very VERY badly need to talk this through. I just need to talk it out. I'm so confused, why is this bad? I really really really need to talk it out.

I superly wish you were there with little turtle too @CheerBear

I also respect whatever decision you make - just as you have done for me - but I also selfishly would really miss having you around if you were no longer here (but that is about me and not you).

I'm scared @CheerBear. I know what I need in order to stay alive tonight. I need to talk this out. That's all I need. I really really really really really need to talk it out.

I'm trying so hard. I am using all the tools in my toolkit (including the one that society would deem pathological). I am trying so so so hard, but it feels like I'm wading through quicksand.

I'm so scared. I don't understand why the rules keep changing. @Former-Member I think I need to utilize the subclause.

The best thing to do in quicksand is to not move @Phoenix_Rising the more you move, the deeper you go - so for now - try not to move - sit with your big feelings and we will move through the quicksand to get to YOU!

That's the problem @CheerBear, I can't talk it out here. This is the stuckness. Talking it out would help so much. I just need to talk it out.

I get it @Phoenix_Rising you have to use your words - you can't just write it - it is the actual physical movement of speaking that helps you to unjumble some of the muddle