Riding a wave

@Spookytookims giggle. I only lose my words when I'm flooded. That was this morning. I am more settled now, just bobbing around on the choppy waters.

I haven't looked at the turtle technique stuff today - thank you for reminding me of it. My psychologist and I did talk about it during our session last week. Given that I spent 95% of the session under the blanket she got for me, it was kind-of apt. And when I say under the blanket, I mean including my head! X made the obvious observation that the turtle technique does seem to be a perfect fit for me given that I seem to naturally withdraw under a blanket (or under a desk if a blanket doesn't happen to be around) when distressed.

Nah, I don't need to talk. Just floating is fine.

Glad it isn't a mega wave @Phoenix_Rising. I'm bobbing around too. This is me in my jetski which is actually a cloudmobile but it looks like a it could be a boaty kind of jetski and there's no need to burst any bubbles with important things like detail and stuff 😉

Capriciousnes - cool word! I had to look it up.

Hope everyone who's floating, bobbing or whirlpooling feels better soon.

Mwhahaha @CheerBearThere's no need? Lol... see that's just it, it's not a choice, it just happens!

INFP's *rolls eyes and shakes head* 😛

And...we are here again. @Former-Member @NikNik@CherryBomb @Former-Member can someone please ride the wave with me. Right now I need to be reminded that there are SOME mental health professionals out there who "get" it. My brain is flooded with utter hopelessness and despair due to yesterday's adventure, which I wrote about on my neurofeedback thread.

I feel utterly utterly worthless. All my giant feelings have been triggered because one damn psychologist couldn't spend five minutes reading through my file and then having a meaningful conversation with me. I try SO HARD to stay alive. I try and I try and I try and I try...and a psychologist who is getting paid a whole lot of money to help me couldn't spend FIVE MINUTES reading my file so that she could at least pretend to know my story.

I'm flooded. I know I'm flooded. I don't need anyone to try and challenge my thinking or anything. My brain is flooded. The thinking part isn't working. I just need to ride out the wave and I need to SEE that there are those out there who get it.

That's a pretty big turbulent wave @Phoenix_Rising. Here with you.