Riding a wave

@CheerBear I super badly want to talk to you more about it, but I figure it probably isn't appropriate. I will be talking it through with my turtle whisperer on Tuesday (which feels a billion years away right now). It has made me all the more terrified about seeing therapist-take-thirteen because I have such a talent for making people get frustrated and defensive when I really and truly don't mean to. I'm thinking that it might be best for my turtle whisperer to talk to therapist-take-thirteen before I do, so that she might be able to explain some of the muddle.

I am super sad about your house situation. The pocket crew and I will definitely be with you to keep anyone out. Maybe you could throw me and the rest of the crew at the person's head and we will cling to their face until they run away. That makes a funny image in my brain.

@CheerBear Nice to hear/see about your day. You can never find the right sized box when you need to Book is still on the floor with LP I hope I can join in a little with you both this week too

@Phoenix_Rising Completely understand re: BM I am pretty sure I 'chatted' with the same BM on Friday night little turtle. I am so sorry BM didn't speak turtle and I am sure she was not feeling at all good about that either I can say that she was a great help to me - so all is not lost there! With some extra help from RP I think she is quite capable of learning to speak turtle - she definitely has potential

@Zoe7 I guess we can't know if we spoke to the same BM (and I don't think it would be helpful to try and figure it out). On Thursday night the phone got passed to RP and on Friday night it got passed to someone else and RP checked in via email soon afterwards. By the time the phone got passed, I was in utter chaos...as in screaming at the top of my lungs chaos.

I am thinking about starting a new thread for the sole purpose of telling my whole story (the bits I choose to share in Forum Land) so that it is there in one place for me to refer anyone to. I do understand that my muddle is huge and that it is super hard for a BM to get their head around it - particularly when we are speaking for the first time during the major crisis of (P)'s passing.

@CheerBear I just saw the pictures. I super super SUPER love them. My favourite one is where I am "meeting" Puffer fish. I am a little scared about being on the lawnmower but I trust you to keep me safe. I am curious to know how you explained my existence to Puffer fish.

Yep got it @Phoenix_Rising

I also know who 'was on' so have a pretty good idea around all this.

I cannot imagine how hard both nights were for you little turtle and I am sorry that it escalated so much - that is definitely not what you needed (yes an understatement I know). It really would be extremely hard for a BM to get 'their head around' what is happening for you when it is your first time speaking - I feel for both of you - just an unavoidable situation (in the circumstances) that infact made your muddle worse (and that sucks for all involved).

I think a thread that you/we can direct BMs, or even members to, that would help in understanding a little more how to speak turtle, is a great idea. I am very happy to help you with this if yiou what to 'bounce' some thoughts off me before posting (sure you don't need that - but offer is there).

Goodnight @Phoenix_Rising and @CheerBear.

Need to go - stupid meds and their side effects

Chat soon

Good night @Zoe7. I will be heading off soon too. Thank you for being so super good at speaking turtle.

@CheerBear I am not entirely sure if "gooey moments" are quite my thing, but I get what you mean. I super wish I could hang out with you and the LF really really. Imagine if we could buy a giant property with a super nice house for you and the LF at one end, and another house for me at the other end. Then we could be a bit more together but still not. I could come and play with the LF and get them super hyped up and over-tired, and then just leave you with them and go home.

I think I am ready to snuggle back into your pocket for the night now. I'm super glad I got brave and snuck into Forum Land tonight. I feel bad because I'm not in the headspace to say hello to any new people or check in on the yoga thread or anything, but I guess that's just good self-care right now. Today is hard and tomorrow will be hard and quite a few days to come will be hard. The two run-ins with the BM really really really didn't help the situation, but I guess I'll survive. After all, I do have a 100% perfect track record of surviving each day - as do you!

Good night @CheerBear.