Riding a wave

@Baboo Ok...I will go and make a hot chocolate and eat something...even though I'm super not hungry. I'm going to assume that you will read the previous post about why the crisis lines hang up on me, rather than me re-telling the story. In a nutshell, I have autism as well as BPD and when I'm super dysregulated I can't find my words. Would you like me to make you a hot chocolate too? I'm super glad you found me in this underwater cave. You must have a sea turtle tracking device or something.

sitting with you @Phoenix_Rising just trying to keep my head above water abit

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@Lil-caterpillar wrote:

sitting with you @Phoenix_Rising just trying to keep my head above water abit

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@Former-Member well that could be tricky since we are sitting in an underwater cave. It's fine for you to go and hang out in the octagonal room. I just need to know there's SOMEONE around...and @Baboo is here so I'm fine. I'll be ok @Former-Member. I've got this.

your a turtle, blow me some bubbles 😉 @Phoenix_Rising

Oh nice timing @Baboo, I just made it. Here:

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@Lil-caterpillar wrote:

your a turtle, blow me some bubbles 😉 @Phoenix_Rising

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@Former-Member

just waiting for the pic @Phoenix_Rising

Ok @Baboo, I have my hot chocolate and some tuna and ricecakes for dinner...even though I know that fish are friends, not food!!! I feel super sleepy after that gigantic flood of emotion. Methinks I will be snuggling into my shell to sleep super soon. I feel frustrated because I have done absolutely nothing all day except stay alive...which I know is a kind-of important something...but there are a lot of other things I would like to be doing!

So...I don't think we have actually met before. Hello, I'm Phoenix_Rising. There's not really much to know about me. I'm just your average run of the mill autistic sea turtle with BPD. I have a big muddle that has accumulated over the past twenty years and I kind-of generally just keep swimming, anticipating that one day the muddle will be less muddled. I am SUPER grateful that I discovered the SANE forums a couple of months ago. This is the best resource I have right now to help me in my muddle.

I'm not quite sure what has happened over the past few days. I guess muddles just have a tendency to ebb and flow like the tides and my muddle is currently at high tide.