Riding a wave

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I don't know what to add but yes - it should be easy to unmuddle a muddle but maybe it's like trying to put toothpaste back into the tube or unscramble an egg

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@Owlunar I have no sense at all that it "should be easy to unmuddle a muddle." At the same time, if it's like trying to put toothpast back into the tube or unscramble an egg, then I'm done. Why would I stay alive to try and fix something that isn't fixable? What would be the point in that? I know it isn't like that. I know it IS fixable. That is the despair. I know that (K) or my turtle whisperer could help to actually FIX it.

@Zoe7 The thing is, with each failed attempt to connect with a therapist, I have less energy to try again. To me, saying I've done it before so I can do it again, is akin to saying "you can run 100 metres at that speed so you can run an entire marathon at the same speed." It isn't like that. My brain is SO fried from all my bad therapist interactions, that I simply don't know how to try again.

Oh and BTW @Zoe7 I super do know that you and others here care about me. When my brain isn't so puddled, I would be curious to know what made you think I think otherwise. I super like you.

@Former-Member The waves are super super super giant. I have stuff I super badly need to get done today and it has descended into a day of Operation Stay Alive.

I need to apologise for how that came across @Phoenix_Rising In my attempt to let you know just how much we care about you I inadvertedly implied that you may not think that yourself - that was definitely not my intention - a really, really poor choice of words on my behalf Was trying to say that despite what you have previously experienced with being let down my so-called 'friends' we very much care about you for who you are and do not expect you to be any different because we simply like YOU. That is probably as clear as mud lol but I hope it clarifies a little better what I was thinking at the time - just didn't translate into the right words in my rush to let you know I was here with you - sorry if that added to your muddle in any way little turtle

Thank goodness little turtle - that is a relief That is the last thing I would want to do @Phoenix_Rising because I super like you too

@Zoe7 I have settled now. I borrowed your regular floatie @Zoe7 and now I will be able to settle to getting on with what I need to do today.

That is awesome @Phoenix_Rising. I have been borrowing your spare shell a bit lately as a pram for Pebbles hope you don't mind

@Former-Member I got done what I super needed to do today. Good job me!!! It was less than I had set out to do, but enough to keep me on track so long as I can do today's planned bit tomorrow. Do you think these students would be worried if they knew their assignments were being marked by a sea turtle riding gigantic waves across a tumultous ocean??? I am trying super hard not to get the assignments wet!

@Zoe7 I SUPPOSE it is ok that you are using my spare shell as a pram for Pebbles. Given that @Former-Member super kindly reverted to her old avatar, I guess this is acceptable. Just make sure you put my spare shell back in its proper place so that I can find it. No leaving it lying about in random places, ok!

Right at the moment @Phoenix_Rising I don't even think me borrowing your spare shell will help - so I will leave it in storage with the flotation devices - so you and the mods will all know where it is. Thanks for the loan little turtle - and I too am pleased @Former-Member changed her avatar back - too many changes - not coping!

@Zoe7 I superly duperly hear you. Change is hard!!!!!!!!! And today is one of those days when that is only one of the hard things.

Still, tomorrow might be better. I'm super glad we don't live on Venus!