Super want to join in this conversation but alas I'm not quite in the right headspace. Sorry to put a downer on it but wanted to say a few things
I struggled with that question so much because I just didn't know @Former-Member. Try not to put pressure on yourself but I could identify with what you were saying about you wanting it to count and help.
Im still in hospital and had a huge meltdown this morning. Part of my issue has been that they think they know me but they don't really seem to get it. It's a little different for me as I also have somewhat of a BPD reputation for over reacting, which is probably justified but not helpful. My meltdown came over communication mix ups.
Eventually I wrote it all down (thank you @Faith-and-Hope for lots of encouragement in the past to write it all down). I handed it to a staff member and it felt like a penny dropped and for the first time I was listened to. Yesterday I did the same thing. I think Ive been saying the same things over and over in the past without putting any emotion into it. Yesterday once I detailed what happened it shocked me and helped the psychologist work out what we needed to do once I got home. Today it helped heaps to feel validated and it felt like they are starting to get me. Some solutions to my problems were acted on immediately.
Your situation might be different but it has helped to record/write what happens for me at those times. Today I think they were a little shocked as what shows on the outside is very different to what's on the inside until it implodes. I then received the help I needed for a couple of thinks from different people. I would not have been able to articulate that without having just let it all go in writing. The thing that I realised is that many of us get better over time writing it here in the forum. Today I took the approach to write it down like a post. It helped heaps and felt kind of weird not to hit post.
I don't know if this is just my ramblings. As I said earlier don't put too much pressureon what you need because it's really hard to know. I'm much better at knowing now but still seem to struggle at times to articulate it. Best wishes for your meeting 💜🤗
