The "Internal Weather" Check-In

@Chasingsunsets

I'm really glad that you have been prioritising rest, your body and mind will certainly thank you for it 💚

My day has been quite productive, did all the household chores that needed doing and have been hanging around on here; it's been good overall and not stressful 😊

Ah very good @MatchaToad, I love a good productive day! 🤩.
Yeah I have been seeing you a bit on the forum lately, it’s lovely seeing you around.
Cryptically speaking how’s the badge process going for you? Have you heard from anyone? There are some elephants in the room I sense re everything atm would be good to get answers I guess at some stage for good or bad if you know what I mean. Big 🌊 felt with this whole topic for me. I do wonder how everyone else is managing.

What’s on for your week 😊

Hey @MatchaToad

I had a psych appointment yesterday and I mentioned this post and told her I feel like I’m in a cyclone. As soon as I said that she said I was in the eye of the storm. She kept going with it and said while you are in the eye you batten down the hatches waiting for the next part to return and then sunny days ahead. The next part of the storm for me is going to be really rocky and really tough but we are preparing for it. We have plans in place for when my thoughts (May) turn suicidal.

So thank you for starting this thread. It has helped me a lot to discuss it yesterday and work with the analogy. I’m grateful to you.

@Chasingsunsets

It's so lovely being seen! I've certainly been enjoying spending more time on here lately 😊

Regarding the badge journey, my volunteer coordinator has been kind enough to advocate for the change with the tech team. I'll probably send another follow-up tomorrow or Friday to see if there are any updates. I haven't really heard too much or specifics about what's been going on in the background, but my priority right now is to support and show up for everyone here on the forums as best as I possibly can 💚

As for the rest of my week, I'm trying to lean more into the cozy vibes. I've got some playwriting projects I'm chipping away at, and I'm hoping to get some time to go outside in the city to balance out the screen time 💚

What about yourself? Anything exciting planned for the rest of the week, or are you planning on just having a relaxing, low-energy end to the week? 😊

@Captain24

Thank you so much for sharing that with me. It is truly humbling to hear that this analogy helped you and your psych navigate those big conversations 💚

Hearing that you're battening down the hatches and putting those safety plans in place is so incredibly brave of you. It's really hard work preparing for a rocky path, but having that team and those plans ready is such a vital anchor point. I know that others and I are here for you as you navigate the journey ahead 💚

I'm holding onto that 'sunny days ahead' hope for you 😊☀️

Those sunny days are weeks.. probably months away but I can only try. I’m having surgery tomorrow, I had the same surgery in November and that is what triggered it all. I’m hoping this time is easier but we are also prepared if the same cycle happens again. @MatchaToad

I hear you, @Captain24. Sometimes those sunny days feel so far away or even impossible to think about, and it takes a lot of courage to keep trying when that horizon feels so distant.

I'll be thinking of you for your surgery tomorrow. It makes so much sense that you are feeling wary after what happened in November, but there is a lot of strength in the fact that you aren't going in 'unprepared' this time. You've got your plans, your team and your awareness; that is a very different starting point than last time 💚

We'll all be right here on the forums whenever you're ready to check-in post-surgey. There is no pressure to be 100% positive. Just know we're all holding space for you while you navigate the journey ahead 💚

Haha always great to see you @MatchaToad I am really noticing the efforts of the community guides, definitely an increase almost pressure for you guys now, I’m so mindful of this and hope you and all the other CG are going ok.

I am so glad to hear the volunteer coordinator is advocating for you. Sorry you haven’t been made aware of the changes. So nice that you are showing your support here 💚. Let’s just say if there was “good” news it would already have been posted not met with subtle silence and feedback forms, however just my opinion and observations. You seem like a good person to chat to about this. I 💯 back the PSWs and 💯 the community guides lots more to say, but the elephant in the room is big and first we need to name it then progress from here 🐘. Definitely not here to start the fires, but here to put them out 💜☀️as mentioned big waves 🌊felt here.

Your week sounds lovely! Enjoy the city and hope there is some good weather for you and your play writing project sounds good too!

hmm interesting day today, was given a medicine from the hospital during a consult which I wasn't expecting, the side effects haven’t made me feel that good. Hopefully surgery soon next month if all goes to plan. My week is going to be really busy actually so bracing for the next 🌊, but the clouds🌫️🌫️ were good while they lasted 😀.

Hey @Chasingsunsets

Thank you so much for those kind words; it really means a lot to know our efforts are being noticed. I hear you on the 'big waves' regarding the forum changes; it can definitely feel a bit heavy when there’s uncertainty in the air. I just hope we see positive outcomes from these changes 💚

I'm sorry to hear the new medication hasn't been making you feel good. That 'bracing' feeling before a busy week and surgery is so real. Even if the fog was short-lived, I’m glad you got those two days of rest from the choppy seas.

Since your week looks so busy, I hope you find some tiny 'pockets of calm' between the waves. I’ll be cheering you on for the surgery news next month! 🌊

Aw thanks @MatchaToad for you kind words, sorry I just said the exact same thing back to you but it means a lot what you mentioned about the surgery, was cancelled a couple of times but organs are playing a bit better so approved for it yay! Will be interesting how recovery goes potential of organs to play up so let’s see 🤔, I’m prepared for it anyway and will not surprise me if it occurs but just got to roll with it 💪. Funny though I like my control so being put under anaesthetic doesn’t really sit well with me, however it needs to happen so got to roll with it I guess.

Just in bed with a couple of heart rate alarms over the last couple of hours. Over 110 whilst being inactive side effect from that medicine, so not too concerned just don’t feel great. Lucky I won’t have to have it again until maybe around surgery time. 😊… But thanks so much for listening to a bit of my worries they don’t come out super often but I’ll make sure I don’t load your thread with all my stuff!

hmmm yess changes, interesting. Knew something was going to be happening from December, knew all of this as it started to take place Jan. Just been observing, said not a lot (most I’ve said has been here) it’s tricky not to rock the forum fam too much, would never be my intention, so it’s a fine balance. Reassurance for everyone is the key which I have been also trying but the balance is talking about the 🐘, I hope for positive outcomes but based on what I have felt since Jan, I really am not sure. My alarm bells have gone off a couple of times, so who knows as we are yet to get clear answers or responses. It’s a hard one. Lots more to say of course 😊

I am going to try and rest when I can is my main goal. Lots going on but try rest as much as I can. I love my walks with my dog so re regulating all the time 🐶🥰.

So lovely to chat I appreciate it a lot thankyou 🙏