Does it ever stop

@DownMoreThanUp @MissGremlin @creative_writer @Invi @MatchaToad - why in the damn world am I still awake. I don’t like this at all.

@DownMoreThanUp @MissGremlin @creative_writer @Invi @MatchaToad @Jynx @RiverSeal @tyme @rav3n - I feel like nights are like my days at the moment because I get really anxious and I get to the point where I can't sleep sometimes as my head races to much and I try to lay here and sleep but I get more frustrated with myself and upset as it makes my head run more. I had myself in a decent sleep pattern a few days ago where I was sleeping during the night and was up during the days and getting things done and being productive.

Ever since I've been sick with RSV & a Cold its gone back to night life and I just wanna cry because I'm more anxious at night and my head races, I hate it so much. I just wanna have a normal life where I can sleep normal hours and function properly.

Im even more hyperviligant during the day when i go out i constantly check over my shoulder make sure nobody is following me or anything, making sure i have enough space around me.

I also feel like I'm walking on egg shells around my family as they have been looking after my rabbits and i had to go down there and check on one of them as she has a ear infection and with everything going on the way it is, its stressful because i know whats going to happen and they don't seem to understand my MH and they just seem to shrug it off or call me a attention seeker when i need support. Or if my bro does something to me he twists it so he gets away with everything and its all my fault like per usual and thats stressful as it is.

Im more happy living out of home as it is, they told me i wouldn't even last and look and me I've been out of home 4 months and I would never go back.

I am safe. just needed to let out how i felt.

Am safe

@tyme - I have sent you a email regarding a issue with my page what I bought up to you. Please read when possible or when your next around!

thanksssss

@Fluttershy1 hey i hope ur ok. i dunno if it'll help but you arent alone. sleep is hard anyway when everythings spinning in your mind.

Hey @Invi - I’ll be ok, it’s just trying to get through. Thanks for reminding me I’m not alone. Sleep is hard when your heads running.

am safe

@Invi - still awake. I can’t shut the mind off. I’m like I wannna sleep

@Fluttershy1 SAME. i managed to get an hour at like 9pm but here we are now. hopefully it comes to you soon.

@Invi - I haven’t been to sleep at all yet, I’m like grrrr, I need sleep eventually

Hello @Fluttershy1 sweet, I'm sorry I ended up falling asleep. Hoping you are sleeping at the moment. I love the paper cranes you made ☺️.

It can be really hard when our sleep routine is thrown out of whack and getting sick often doesn't help with that. I know it's frustrating when you can't sleep and laying there with thoughts racing through your head is tough. You are doing well to do things to help keep yourself distracted and regulated as much as you can. Just remember that this won't last forever and hopefully you'll be able to get back to a good sleep routine soon sweet.

I'm sorry it's like walking on egg shells with your family, I know how hard that can be. When family doesn't understand what it's like with MH struggles it can feel really hurtful but I'm proud of you for seeking support when you need it sweet, it takes alot of strength to do that in those moments.

Sending hugs to you ❤️

@Fluttershy1 Very glad you are safe. Do you have medications to fight the anxiety? For i think this is really important. For my psych medications do not work for you in that situation? For i can share some of the remedies available over the counter which i have found helpful to aid me at bad times.

Also grounding techniques, which help to stop over thinking and reactivation, do you use any of them. for i found them to be invaluable in my battle with anxiety.

Hoping you fast asleep even now.