Whaledone1234Senior Contributor
Lonely trying to fit in
So recently I was talking with someone online over a period of a couple of weeks. I knew they were gay and they knew I wasn't. After chatting for a while things developed into a more intimate conversation. At first I was uncomfortable but it made me feel needed and important and like I could open up. I had thoughts of if I was actually gay and it was very confronting. After a while I realised no, I'm not gay and decided I'm just feeling validated and wanted but also because I knew I had someone who made me feel less vulnerable and I the feeling of me being appreciated for being there for someone. Even when I said that this isn't actually me and I couldn't continue. They were so understanding and kind and caring and comforting and there was no hard feelings at all. Now I'm feeling alone and isolated and I want to reach out to them but I know that's not a healthy thing to do. I just feel like there's no one else to talk to.