Been feeling heavy heart

After being detrayed, it takes time to get used to reaching out again. I think one of the more profoung things my psych said was, "Yes, you protect yourself by isolating yourself, but you also miss out on all the joy it can bring". This gave me a bit of a push in the right direction.

I found these forums a good starting point when it came to socialising again. @R_nie912

yea i guess so @tyme i sometimes enjoy my own company and sometimes not really

I think I'm with people so much that by the time I'm home or whatever, I'm just please to have my own company. At the moment, it's hard because my niece stays with me each night. She's on school holidays and I hate having her over in the evenings, but she always wants to come and says her bed is not 'big enough'! She only has a double bed! @R_nie912 Kids nowadays!

yea dealing with too much people can be exhausting too @tyme and having that me time is good but too much me time not so great as well..haha..but yea im just probably working too much, didnt take my holiday properly and not having proper sleep and eating habits..idk..just feeling weird something just missing or not right

What would you ideally like to see your life to be?

I work a lot too, but I find pleasure in it, and I feel it gives me accountability, purpose and routine @R_nie912

So I guess it's about what works for you and whether it aligns with your values.

it is good to love your job @tyme ..i am too but then my situation got a little complicated with my visa thingy and i have to sort of change my job as well..i tried to love my new job but it's a struggle for me.

i just wish i have a simple life and very little ambition. being too ambitious it's hard i dont know where to start. i like to do a lots of things but im just always tired so ended up sleep in more.

what do u do for living if u dont mind me asking?

I do a few things. I have my own business in disability - but I don't do much of this as I don't have time.

I also work with children and I'm here working at SANE.

At the same time, I do volunteer advocacy work for a mental health organisation and finally, I'm finalising a research paper. @R_nie912

So yeah... there's a lot that I do.

I mind my sister's three children too sometimes. They are my aunty duties.

I tried to work in only one field, but I quickly got bored.

oh wow @tyme you do did a lot of stuff at one i dont know how you manage all of it 😦 but im sure you are really good at what you are doing 🙂

I skipped work for 2 days now im feeling a little bit guilty for not going but i feel like i am just so exhausted and i dont have much motivation to continue doing stuff lately..i dont feel enthuastic or looking forward to it which worries me..i dont know how am i going to regain this..during this 2 days off i went to shopping mall and shop some books that potentially going to help me to be away from phone it works a bit but my thoughts on im not that motivated in doing stuff scares me..and today i last minute making a sick leave call and just stay at home..i slept a bit..watch some movies but feels still lingers

i really dont know what i need to do now so i can get rid of this uneasy feeling soon

Do you like the role @R_nie912 ?

Is there an opportunity for you to look at something else?

It sounds incredibly hard that you have to go, even when you are feeling exhausted. IN a way, maybe your body needed that little break. Would you say so?

Although, I have to give you credit that you went and bought yourself some books to read! Well done!

Do you listen to audiobooks much or at all?

I'm here to listen if you need an ear.

Sitting with you.

what do u mean role @tyme? i think so im not too sure ☹️ i thought i feel okay after the days off but this morning i woke i really feel like i dont want to go to work again..