Anonymouse1000Senior Contributor
Today, I had to make a hard decision.
Hi Everyone,
I'm sharing this in the hope that it encourages, someone, anyone, at any time to sometimes make a hard decision.
Today, I had to decide that for my family and my partner, my children, fur-children and parents. That I just wasn't coping as well as I should be.
I was suffering with intrusive thoughts, and not great ones, and so I packed a bag and checked myself into the local ED.
I waited for hours, sobbing, in an emergency room surrounded by strangers, who I thought must have been looking at this odd giant of a man, who didn't seem to have anything physically wrong with him, I guess he just looked hurt.
So here I am, sitting in a bed, the monotonous sounding of alarms singing to each other across the hallway, the hiss of the too cold air-conditioning.
Soon they will ship me off to another hospital with many psychiatric patients, expecting a full 2 week dry out, its going to be agonising, hard, and all hell's of uncomfortable.
When I look at the pictures of my children, my dog, my partner, I sob uncontrollably because this choice, I made for them. Ill return stronger, a better man, a better dad more able to love them and the world around me. To care more.
To the lovely forumites of SANE, make the hard decisions or as one of my favourite movies quotes "Choose life"...
