I don’t think you should feel shame @Jacques to have made it through all those adverse circumstances. Most people couldn’t do it. Most people couldn’t imagine it, but you’ve lived through it and come out the other side. It shows incredible competence and resilience.
I once lasted a week on a packet of SAOs and a jar of Vegemite, but it was only short term lack of funds for about a year. People don’t understand that it’s not just the actual MH issue that you need to deal with but all the range of effects on every aspect of your life that you need to deal with and you did all of that.