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Cuddlebears Space

CuddlebearSenior Contributor

Cuddlebears Space

Hello everyone I’ve made a space here.

I’ve been having a really rough time. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse since childhood. I’ve been on forums for a while now and thought to start a thread so that my journey and anyone that cares to see how I’m going and offer support or advice can find me here.

I have complex ptsd, anxiety and severe depression with anhedonia. I’m currently tapering antidepressant and it’s been brutal.

I am really struggling everyday and can’t find ways to feel better. I’ve tried so many things.

I am having daily panic attacks, my body shutdown and I am so lonely with very little support. There’s a real heavy darkness around me I feel so unloved and worthless. I can’t do basic things like shower, eat, clean and going out is very very hard. I have no purpose or meaning though I try to create it but nothing works.

More recently I’ve experienced passive SI and sometimes more active. The tapering I believe has caused these symptoms. I’m safe.

Im finding it hard to write this all up. I hope it gives you some insight. @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself@Chasingsunsets

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CuddlebearSenior Contributor

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I’m here 🙂 @Flutterbug9@Captain24 @ENKELI @Shaz51

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CuddlebearSenior Contributor

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor

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Hello my sweet @Cuddlebear, know that you are so loved here by many of us. We'll get through this darkness together beautiful, one little step at a time. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️.

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Shaz51Senior Contributor

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Thank you 😊 @Cuddlebear for the tag my friend 🧡

Sitting with you every day 💕

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c-user1999Moderator

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Hey @Cuddlebear

Thank you for sharing, it sounds like you've been carrying so much and writing it out takes real strength. I'm really glad you reached out and created this space. You're not alone here, and you're welcome to share whatever feels manageable at your own pace!

If things ever start to feel unsafe or overwhelming, reaching out to a crisis support service like Lifeline 13 11 14 can be really important.

Thank you again for sharing 🤗

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NightFurySenior Contributor

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Sitting with you @Cuddlebear

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ENKELISenior Contributor

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@Cuddlebear oh darling, I am so sorry you are having such a tough time. Thank you for tagging me, I really do care about how you are going.
It is hard when you don't have any support, I can relate to that. Not having many friends or family members that I am close to makes it hard to cope.
Just getting up each day is a challenge for you, I know. I can give lots of advice that I don't follow myself, but I know that isn't helpful.
I am usually around so if you want to chat just hit me up. I am home pretty much all the time.

The only thing is the time difference as I am in WA. Not sure where you are gorgeous, if you told me my shocking memory has forgotten.
Big hugs, I am happy to sit quietly with you xoxo

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Flutterbug9Senior Contributor

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@Cuddlebear

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ChasingsunsetsSenior Contributor

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Hi there @Cuddlebear 🙏, thanks for sharing your story with us and thanks also for the tag 🤗. It sounds like it’s been incredibly difficult for you at the moment, you have also been through so much but despite this you have been fighting on, not only that but also supporting others here. I know I have said this before but I want to say it again ☺️ thanks for being such a lovely friend here on the forum to us, I am truely grateful.

Here with you, you are not alone my friend

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