The me no one knows - SI warning

Hello lovely @Flutterbug9 🦋 and @Cuddlebear 🐻‍,

I just wanted to let you know we are all here if you would like to chat about this further. I understand that these changes are really vulnerable, especially when a certain amount of support has become comfortable and consistent. Change is never easy and it's been quite a shift for us too. Please know that we will be here as much as possible, you are not at all forgotten, and we are considering our wonderful community in all of our decisions. I can assure you that the new moderation team are absolutely wonderful and will be able to provide just as much care and guidance as the current peer support team. We will check-in as much as we can when we are on shift, but please let us know what else might be helpful in allowing you to feel supported right now. Big hugs. 💛

Trying to deal with more than impact of post I think you are referring to @AlwaysMyself

things that have resulted in flashbacks, nightmares, panic attacks. Nights of limited amount of sleep or lots of quantity, no quality. Failing to regulate emotions

can’t talk about something’s due to restrictions on posts.

wont talk about other things

emotiinally drowning on my own as have no one to talk to

maybe we can continue our other chats at some stage, if you are ok with that.

no pressure and no issues if prefer not to

*hugs*. I wish I could be there to sit with you physically through this @Flutterbug9 , and that I could then talk to you about the things that we can't do on the community forums. I hear you about how hard it is to not have anyone suitable/helpful to talk to during this.

I'm really sorry that I have to log off now because I need to try to get some sleep (still have some physical adrenaline effects from yesterday that I need my body to reset). But if I can't get to sleep (insomnia occurs again) then I will check back in to see how you are.

Know that i care. Know that i would want to discuss those thoughts that you aren't allowed to share here, that I wish i could talk you through them to sort them out in your head and process the feelings.

Hey @Flutterbug9,

It sounds like things are very overwhelming tonight. I will be here for another half an hour, if you'd like to chat? 💙

@AuntGlow focus of the forums is recovery.

really difficult to feel I belong on forums due to my MH getting worse.

difficult/impossible to openly talk about to anyone on the forums about my SI and SH

frustration becomes anger.
Anger becomes tears.

tears end in frustration.

Conversation over consecutive days with PSW. Then random post by Mod whose post shows only last post from conversation has been read …WT@. Post by mod that therefore doesn’t make sense.

Feedback form has already been completed and submitted for 1st case as suggested by Tyme during one of my recent conversations with her.

Great new mods/supports are being trained and Im fully aware of challenges in training plus being trained. Some posts recently not relevant for different reasons though

Take care of yourself @AlwaysMyself

hoping this coming week is kind to you

Thinking of you @Flutterbug9.

Im hoping you got a little bit of quality sleep last night.

Hoping that you are doing the best you can be.

Message to Tyme and only Tyme!!

@tyme what have I done wrong?

I honestly wanted to you how your holiday was when I asked the question. Do you prefer I don’t ask these type of questions?

I asked a question about “triage” for my knowledge.

Should I not have asked?

tried to honestly answer your question about what supports look like. Don’t understand how following post by Mod is relevant.

@tyme

Hey @Flutterbug9

Sorry for responding but tyme wont be back until Wednesday night. Maybe re tag them then and they will see it.

@AlwaysMyself Thanks for checking last night about tagging. Please don’t

I respect your silent response to my questioning about continuing couple of our recent, general topic chats and won’t ask again. Will try to avoid doing similar again