General chit chat

Hello Claire @outlander 🙂

OOOooo . . . what would I like as an Avatar? You know that whatever you create, just for me, is going to fill my heart with joy!! . . . but I wouldn't mind my own Planet, instead of blue and green I'd like mine to be orange and yellow - an island Planet, loads of water with little islands of land. Planet Niqua 😄 Where no 1 life-form dominates another 🙂

I think I actually physically feel the dopamine {is that the one?} that floods my brain when I read your words Words are powerful tools, and you use yours so very well and in the most positive way 🙂

Oh my! I did have a quick peek at your thread last night and noticed you mentioned your foot giving way. It doesn't surprise me that your whole body is going to pay for it! The foot bones connected to the leg bone, the leg bone connected to the hip bone, the hip bone connected to the spine bone etc. . .

My neck problems started a couple of decades ago, though I was already being labelled with MI issues. I think it actually made the neuro-biological disorder worse. I had to tell myself that the pain and nausea wasn't real, for years I could not understand why I would do that to myself? Though it lead me to try and understand my own body better, even in the not so obvious physical ways. I think what I have is called poly(something) ankolizing spondilitus (not even trying to spell that right), it's not just in my spine, it's also in my joints.

I slept fine last night, which I was a little concerned I may not - only because I'd let my movies run down a little and ended up gobbling a little download on some catch-up tv, yet still went to bed earlier than usual. But is was all good, I woke a little earlier than usual - that's fine.

I know those nightmares, you poor thing. I think when I was young, I would wake from those dreams and vomit, the bed would be saturated with sweat. I did also have a problem with 'wetting' the bed, but I was usually awake. I would wake and feel paralysed, I could not move, I had a certainty in my mind that someone or something was just waiting for me do so, before they 'got me'. Sometimes if I 'had to go', well . . . I just 'had to go' - I could not move until the sun came up.

For me, it got better, even before I managed to stop them. It took a couple of decades and that may seem like a lifetime; but it is proof of a possible light at the end of the tunnel. I did have to consciously battle with myself for a better sleep pattern, and I do quite vehemently defend it to this day, but I now have a good one 🙂

Thank you for believing I am enough, I think you are more than enough

Take it easy today, rest all them bones 🙂

Love you you

Nanny Niqua

Hello Claire @outlander 🙂

OOOooo, you've given me the excitement of a child waiting to open a present 😄 But I want you to know there's no pressure at all, I am extremely happy with the gift of the Avatar you have already given me; and I feel this excitement whether the 'present' gets opened or not 😉

I see trees of green,
red roses too.
I see them bloom,
for me and you.
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue,
And clouds of white.
The bright blessed day,
The dark sacred night.
And I think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow,
So pretty in the sky.
Are also on the faces,
Of people going by,
I see friends shaking hands.
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying,
"I love you".

I hear babies cry,
I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more,
Than I'll ever know.
And I think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

Yes, I think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

Oh yeah.

There you go, a more postive song to get stuck in your head 😄

You asked if I like to keep the tv on as a background noise? Or would I rather the quiet? I must have quiet and dark to sleep. Lucky I live in the back blocks of nowhere hey, well, actually, luck has nothing to do with it. During my lifetime I noticed the further I got away from towns and people, the better I rested. So I chose the bush and still believe it was the best choice for me. I actually don't have a TV, and my solar system is home made - I don't run anything all night.

You bring out certain memories in me, that I don't really like remembering. But there is a positive in all that. You give my bad good, a purpose for living through everything I have and still do to this day - if I can give you hope . . . it's all worth it

Well now young lady, you stay curled up on that couch - I'll give you permission to stretch if it helps your aches . . . but absolutely no driving OK!!! {nag, nag, nag, nag, nag!!!!!} Sending you wishes of peaceful sleep, where all your muscles can let go and for just a little while you can escape everything.

Nanny Niqua

Hi Niqua,

I missed replying to your past post before you went away for the weekend. Very tired at the moment, so won't respond at length now either. Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you, sending love, and hoping there are good times at the centre of your universe.

@Former-Member