General chit chat

I've got a breast cyst at the moment too @outlander .....

This is not a painting I can share, unfortunately, cos I would love to.

The visit to my dad was good.

I hope you sleep well too .....

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Good Morning Mazy 🙂

Thanks for the high fives! 😄 I love the Gumtrees song, it's so Australian - and so me 😄 I'm still reeling from the trip, the spin now seems to be like a desperate grasping - trying to hold on to the reality of it. I don't want to let it go, I did do it, and I need to remember that so I can do it again.

Yours and PeppiPatty's video is beautiful! Thank you for posting it again just for me! PeppiPatty's words were a short but direct link to raw emotions, your video and audio choices and editing were like a window into someones soul. I think what we all strive for is freedom, they say it's love and success - but I think those things are often quite the opposite to freedom. We all want to break our bonds, sever our tethers and fly free, floating with the clouds. That's what I felt like I did, even if only for 24 hours - I untied the tether and flew; now that I've returned the knots are loosened.

Wow, I had no idea the NBN set-up would take so long! . . . and your social-butterflying again! 😄 I think maybe some of your past month has permanently worn off on you 🙂 Your life doesn't seem to want to slow down for you just yet 😉 I did wonder about you connecting to it, with your lease being questionable; I don't know how it works, perhaps you can get some pre-paid so there's no contract? It would frustrate the hell out of me to have something like that there and not be able to use it!!!

There's a saying I wisper in my head, everytime my body squeals - 'Use it or loose it'. My body, like yours, is going to hurt no matter what I do; overdo it, underdo it or do it perfectly right - it's still going to hurt - it hurts itself. I want to overdo it just a little, I want to use it! The feeling of muscles burning is one I'd have to say I enjoy, I've felt it a lot over the years - I worked hard for my money 🙂 But the pain in the joints, is far more intense and focused, it's stops my movement instantly - I'm too much of a wuss to deal with it, . . and it's only ever going to get worse. So I tell myself to enjoy today, because I know it's better than tomorrow 🙂

Sending you love and gratitude for thinking just of me You really made my day with your video 😄

@Mazarita

Your friend Niqua 🙂

Good Morning @outlander

I put a lot of fun into making my slide-show, it's full of excitement, joy, pride and wonder 🙂 I'm so glad you enjoyed it! 😄

I am not just honoured for your pride in me and for being one of your special people - I love it, I am in awe of it Your a beautiful soul, I guess you remind me of me a little, when I was younger. I know we're 2 totally different people, and that even if we went through exactly the same circumstances we would develop from them in very individual ways. But I remember in my youth, a feeling of constant pressure - it never 'let up', I always felt bad. I don't think you do the stupid things I used to do to try and feel better, nor do I think you deliberately put yourself in bad situations - in those ways you are better than me! well, maybe better isn't the word - your different, individual, and your choices are better than mine were at your age 🙂

I have permanent breast cysts, if I squeeze my nipples a very dark (looks almost black, but is kind of dark green) thick fluid releases. I believe it has something to do with my having naturally lumpy breast tissue. I've had this since I had my child 34 years ago - way back when I got married for the first time at 17. My breasts would get sore every month with my menstrual cycle, it doesn't happen as obviously now as I believe I may be going into menopause and haven't bled for a couple of years. (Sorry if this is too much information, just trying to let you know I have experienced this for decades and I'm still here :))

I remember when I first got the flush toilet here, I hadn't had one for a decade or more and was so excited I went out and bought a special seat for it with sea shells and a star fish set in resin on it 😄 . . then I took photos!! 😄 😄 😄 It's not hooked up to a water inlet anymore, so I use a bucket to flush it with - but it still flushes and I'm still excited about that 😄 !

Oh my you vet bill is rising! But I know that she is worth it to you Though I also realize the financial stress adds to the worry of her well-being and to all your stresses in general. I'm glad the weather has cleared a little for you, and rain, although it may be a little unpleasant at times, is essential for life on our Planet 🙂 I hope for yours and your horses sake, she's feeling better soon

Good to hear your Sisters bug was just a 24 hour one and that she'll be back at school today 🙂 I hope your appointment with the Doctor goes well, it's worth it to be sure about what's going on. I wonder what time your seeing them? Know that I'll be sitting on your shoulder, beaming cyber-positivity to you the whole time 🙂

Sending you love and hugs

Niqua.

Good Morning @Shaz51 🙂

How are you today? I'm good, I'm still glowing from my trip - though I have a little worry about forgetting it, so I keep looking at my slide-show 🙂

How are you feeling? Have you found out what are the best foods for you to eat?

I'm trying to motorvate myself into finishing mowing the last bit of my back-yard; the grass isn't growing so much now as it's gotten much cooler, . . . but the patch up the back still needs to be mowed! (Wish I could get you and Hubby to help! 🙂 )

I've got a nasty big sore on my right pointy finger, I had a big chunk of wood for the heater last night and it only just fit - I burnt my finger getting it in there though! Oh well . . . it's the time of year for lots of little burns and blisters on the fingers (and splinters!!). Does it get cold where you are, I've gone from near 50 heats to minus's here! but the days are still beautiful 🙂 . . . and I prefer the cold - it won't last long.

Sending you smiles and laughter for the day, wishing you health and happiness 🙂

Good morning, @Former-Member, @outlander, @Faith-and-Hope, @Shaz51 and others reading this discussion thread.

I am in a better mood this morning than I was all yesterday, when a gut feeling of emptiness and deep dissatisfaction was gnawing at me. Today the sun is shining again and my mood is more in keeping with the beautiful nature around me. Alone at my friend's place again while she is away. That's because the NBN are now entering their third day of extreme noise at home. It's a block of 18 units and they have to completely wire the building and every flat to receive NBN. It was meant to take one day but all their drilling through concrete to lay cables has hit snags in the form of metal plates in the concrete slabs. They've had to order in special drilling equipment to get it done. I leave it to your imagination to tell you what it's like having heavy duty concrete drilling equipment in action outside your front door! It's so outlandishly extreme it makes me laugh, but only because I've been able to get out of there.

@Former-Member, thanks for your thoughtful words about the video I shared with you. Still riding high with you about your taste of freedom last weekend. Funny thing: I get the 'use it or lose it' voice in my head too! There's daily discomfort and pain involved in my conditions but I also take paracetemol every day (prescribed to me, as it is to half the planet for their osteo conditions, it seems), and stronger pain relief when I need it. I believe in pain relief as something that aids healing. It also makes life more livable. Ah but Niqua is made of stronger stuff than me I think, in regards pain tolerance (and camping tolerance) at the least! Wise words about enjoying today. Some days it's easier to do this than others!

Beaming cyber warmth to all.