Heartathome

Hi @heartathome ,

How are you, my friend? I'm thinking that life may be a bit average at the moment. I wonder if something has happened to change things. Are you still in touch with your new friend? Is it still refreshing? Or was it your sister's news that upset the equilibrium? Perhaps a lingering effect of sharing your poems.

No need to answer any of my questions. I know I'm bring intrusive. I just wanted to reach out.

Today, after posting my Bible summary, I have mostly lain on my bed looking at youtube. I'll recharge my phone soon. I just watched one behind the scenes of making Keeping Up Appearances. Apparently it was a carefully crafted fake accent and Patricia Routledge stayed in character between takes. The actors use to have a laugh competition - who would disrupt the most takes because they were laughing at Mrs Bucket. Even when not filming Patricia Routledge insisted on being called Bouquet.

My day has been lazy and slow but I still feel peace.

I'm thinking of you and hope you feel God holding you.

Sorry. A reply is coming @Realness 💚

Hi @heartathome ,

Thanks for letting me know. No rush.

Oh @Realness

It's been a while. I hate to see that you worry about me! Going for a walk every day is improving my mental and physical health! Getting out, seeing Gods handiwork and appreciating life. I'm trying to get out of the unit more and am not on SANE then.

My new friend and I facetime every day (which takes up my time of a night - I'm not complaining) and I'm loving his friendship. To be honest with you, he is taking up a lot of my head space. He is a Christian which is great. We have the basis in common.

God hasn't changed and is still loving and blessing me! I've always been a bit of a rebel. So was Jesus!

On Tuesdays, our bible study studies the same passage that is preached on the Sunday. It's been good to get further understanding. I learnt that my identity is in Christ and too much 'inward looking' is not good for my spiritual life. As Isaiah says My ways are not your ways or your THOUGHTS my thoughts. I still think of myself as a pretty hopeless Christian, but God thinks about me differently because of Jesus! I need to keep my eyes above! I'm trying to remember to praise God while I go on my morning walk. My friend suggested that.

Believe it or not I was struggling to come to terms of being 65 this month. 😀 I felt old and ugly (with all my wrinkles from the trauma of the flood - almost overnight!), then an 84-year-old friend said to me, "I wish I was 64". Well, that put things in perspective for me. Now I want to enjoy the next 20 years, God willing.

I had a lung cancer screening test last week and have the results back but don't understand what it means. I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon to explain it to me. I pray it's all okay. I've been a smoker since I was 14. Definitely some emphysema. I can tell them that!

Perhaps a lingering effect of sharing your poems. Perhaps Realness. Going through my poems again was difficult but understanding more about how the abuse has affected me and set me up for dysfunctional relationships with men is powerful to know.

I can only leave my sister in Gods hand and pray for His will. I don't know what else to pray for. God's will is better than any words I could come up with! I'm really happy that she got the good news about it being treatable. I've been told that Ovarian Cancer isn't treatable by a nurse, so I see this as a miracle! 🙏

I know I'm bring intrusive. You are never intrusive Realness! You can ask me as many questions as you like! I'll always answer them if I can. I'm a pretty open book.

I haven't been replying to everyone lately. I'm definitely living with fog brain and processing the situations of other people are too much at the moment. My brain is saying nothing!

That's interesting about Keeping Up Appearances. I did enjoy that program.

I'm glad you are feeling at peace! You so deserve it, my friend! I've missed talking with you! I loved seeing you tag me here. 💚

@heartathome sorry if its not bgood or upsetting yo

I had a lung cancer screening test last week...have a doctor's appointment this afternoon to explain it to me. I've been a smoker since I was 14. Definitely some emphysema. I can tell them that!

The results are back @Realness This is what happens after smoking for 50 years! I'm just glad not to hear the word cancer. 💜

Mild coronary artery disease

4 lung nodules which they will monitor in 12 months

Mild emphysema - they want me to do a lung function test

Hi @heartathome ,

Thanks for the long beautiful reply.

I would have replied sooner except Mum wanted to go shopping and then out for a bit. Then we watched the news, Deal Or No Deal and Who Wants To Be A Millionaire.

I just read your message with the results. I read them as being okay. Not great but in line with being a smoker. Am I right?

Your life sounds nice. I'm sorry that I worried about you. Walks, facetime with your new friend, and time away from the Sane Forums are all good things.

Birthdays and ageing are mental milestones. They can be really big. It's understandable. I've got a bit funny about my age - I forget how old I am. I keep having to work it out from the year I was born in. I think I might be in some sort of denial or something. I think it's the only thing I have amnesia with.

When you wrote about your Bible Study and relationship with God I thought about us being clothed in Christ and God seeing His Son and His Spirit when He looks at us. Nice.

So good to hear from you. Thank you for making the time.

THAT IS PERFECT @REDLINEZ750 I LOVE IT!!!

THANKYOU SO MUCH! 💜

Everything is in it! The water, the heart of hope and the hands of the community in the shape of a heart. It is everything about Lismore! ( @moderator I think I can mention the town because I haven't lived there for four years but I just wanted to make sure.) The story of the flood, the community coming together and the hope many of them still have are told perfectly in the graphics. If there are any tears, they're tears of gratitude. It might just be something in my eye though. lol

It was a really long post, hey @Realness. It took me 3 days to finish. Yeah the results are pretty normal for a smoker!

Because Im not on the forum all the time anymore, I miss some posts. I love the forums but need to have a more balanced life. Ill still be on everyday and will definitely answer your tags.

Are you game to tell me how old you are? 😁 💚