alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

Hello my friend I will just go get dinner now ques gone and reply to you soon, I didn't want you to see I had posted elsewhere and ignored you @heartathome , I will be back while your still perpinfidicular think of you

Oh no @heartathome I think I have an inkling toward what your talking about, do you have private health insurance by any chance?

If so they will put you through st John of God which could help you be closer to your sister who has every right to be afraid I know I would be, Nepean hospital also has a residential program I think that's accessable through Medicare just not sure on beds and requirements I definitely know it's an option though and has been modernized last few years and treatments trauma informed.

I know where there a room you can use rent free in blue mountains if forum allowed us to communicate in emails or something away from here but I do think I read it's forbidden unless anonimisitinrss was already broken before joining

Either way I will be here to support you and for you to lean on as much as I can at all times if it's needed and helps you my hippieheartathome sister

I left the older hippie sister out coz I'm down like that 😆😁🥰

This thread is as much about me as it is you my dear friend, please know that @heartathome and you can say the earths flat I'll just chuckle or poke the bear but never be offended by anything you post here so please know that I'm not shy on your poem thread either, if anything it's easier for me to not miss anything on here. And I also thank you @AlwaysMyself for being your caring and observant self as for others please be aware at the point of this post I'm still only reading what's only last few days posting so I hope no one's good will has been left felt unnoticed as it will all be caught up with even it takes till next year when I'm back on laptop I will know the time frames to go back to so please know love for you all and I noticed a big load of smothering love hug for @rav3n who has always supported me and taught me with patience and humility when I'm running mentally in the redline and at times I wasn't aware and happily backed off the throttle before something broke, just trying for a metaphor there to show you I appreciate you @rav3n your kindness and gentle hey mate your running bit hot please slow down we want you to stay in the forum lane and not harm yourself or others and so respectfully I learned to admire your tag and always welcome seeing you appear on the threads knowing your constantly busy monitoring the traffic for the accidental menace that's heading towards chaos or bedlam in a place it doesn't belong nor is it intended to present.

• Happy birthday you beautiful black bird and I hope you had murder in your day hehehe. Wondering if that gets through given it context having love behind it and me fauntinging with boundaries maybe just a tad

   

How are you?

Honest question your son and his care worker and your sister are a lot and I shudder to think your not remembering to be kind to yourself amongst that and other things your not mentioning @heartathome

I will be hoping to have a nice back n forth on Christmas day with you if it helps you to know that my friend

Aww God love you! @REDLINEZ750 I'm okay! Much better now. I'm hoping to hear how your day's been on another thread. I hope you're doing okay! Yeah, I do have private health insurance. I should use the bas****. I pay enough for it! It would be a hassle to go but look at you doing it!

My sister lives on the Central Coast, and a detox is near where she lives. I wish I could tell you where it is!

I know where there a room you can use rent free - lmao 🤣 I'd love to but I'm sure meeting up would be impossible plus we have a mysterious 'relationship' as it is! There must be some weirdness in you for me feel to connect with you. 😂

My psych listened to what I had to say about our connection. He talked about transference (connected to my childhood) Bla bla bla. My sister on the other hand (because we can never meet) was into it! She said it's nice to be able to talk to someone and connect, especially from the opposite s3x. I'm listening to my sister this time! 😉 I think as long as we can keep being honest with each other, as much as we can on here, we're all good!

In case you have to get off, I'll say goodnight 💛

Your family awaits you! 🤗

I've just lost two hours work on here. I accidently clicked cancel instead of post!! 😞 I've had my meds and need to go to bed.. Goodnight my @REDLINEZ750 💛

UPDATE 12th 5.39 am

Found it!!

I hope I haven't scared you off by my last post! My psychiatrist has told me that I can be too honest for my own good. Let's see. 💛

Hey 'my' @REDLINEZ750 I just wanted to let you know that I'm going out around 2pm to go to a drama night. They want my 'acting' skills apparently! 😂 I'm staying the night at a friend's place, so I don't have to fight with the kangaroos coming back of a night plus I don't drive of a night. She lives about twenty minutes away in rural. I'll probably get on throughout the night to see if you're on. A night off might give you extra time to reply to everyone though, but I don't know if I can do that! This is something different for me so I'm anxious! Nothing new about being anxious!

I hope you're going okay! 💛

Hey @heartathome I say meh to your psychiatrist as far as I go yet agree with the risk of harm to you if I was a player or scamster I' have not been the most law abiding citizen in the past but never was a fraudster and was always around drugs and loss of license driving riding offences, I am a fan of your sister haha.

Drama skills hey, either my memory has a hole that knowledge of yourself has fallen through or you kept them cards close to your chest.

That's pretty cool man may I ask what it involves?

Is it improv or full shakespearian set up?

Either way I'm curious now and find it fascinating

Get your Psychiatrist to go through [Moderator Edit] Richmond, no risk of meeting each other there [Moderator Edit] and I know it's a beautiful atmosphere you are treated like royalty and 95% of clients are our generation mental health history neuro divergent and in detox rehab and it's hard for health insurance to deny their referral as they have such a solid reputation a lot of people go out and come back in so good way get something back from paying health insurance and helping you comfortably get through a trying time.

You said since 14 so 20yrs is a long time my friend 😉

The room in emu plains I would of still been in here so wasn't any chance of us meeting only chance of your feeling how hard it is to leave a little black maned lion behind hahaha

Can show our communications to your psychiatrist if need be I mean if I was some kind of con artist or my care was not genuine moderators would pick that kind of misleading up before that type behaviour could expose any of us to that kind of harm.

I really hope the anxiety your experiencing is actually excitement about performing and it channels into your having a wonderful night of glitz and glamour

I find myself gently smiling at the thought of you having a good night in a thehatrical environment regardless of it's type 😊

I hope ypur time with your friend and overnight stay went well @heartathome . I hear how sxary new things can be, esp with anxiety adding to that. You are brave and courageous for still doing it even though you know you will feel anxious. I hope it was an overall good experience that encourages you to maybe even do it again sometime to help ease the anxiety (if it works that way for you over time?).

I am proud of you. 😊

Lovely seeing you on @REDLINEZ750 and just reiterating that i know you have limited time and i will never think you're ignoring or think less of you because of no response. 😊🤗.

I can also say I have known people who went to the Richmond hospital and found it really helpful and a place of respite too. That was 15-20 years ago, so its good to hear that they still have a good rep. The person i knew went for PTSD, depression and anxiety.

I have also heard good things about a facility in the south coast - someone my mother knows went there and reported it was good. I looked at it earlier in the year as a possible for myself (but decided not to do an admission there). Not sure if the one in North Shore area is still going... but there is one there too. It was suggest to me 20 years ago lol but i didn't have private health insurance at that age. It had a rep for good rooms and living conditions and i think an OK program 20 years ago at least lol - or else my psych would not have recommended it i guess lol.

I have to run now to an appointment! Chat later. Care to you both.

Hey! @REDLINEZ750 I say meh to my psych as well. I think his main problem is that he's been in this situation before with a client and blurred the boundaries himself. It went to court where I saw the manuscript online. I was furious thinking that he had ghosted someone. He explained himself and I asked some hard questions which I know he answered honestly because of his answers. Gotta remember I've been seeing him for twenty-six years! I'm a big fan of my sister too! 🤗

Nor have I been an angel as well! No driving records though. I don't drive fast anymore. I've rolled a car, and it was scary shit, being stopped by a tree from going over the side of a mountain. I was lucky to avoid the cops in my past! I just look innocent. 😁 Now I look old. I don't know what age you think I am. If I started at 14, I've been going for 51 years. Did you think you were onto some young thing? 😂

It's always a worry driving these days for fear of getting tested for something I shouldn't have in my system. There was no testing back in my day. I could lose my licence for three months and that would be a bummer, because I'm in a rural area.

Sorry. I'm no actress. 😁The lady running it did ring me, though and ask if I would be involved this year. The drama thing was only a meeting to discuss the next drama. Maybe testing out some acting skills. It would be something about woman as she has a soft spot for them.

She's had to go to a funeral today so she's not really up to an overnight. I understand that! I'm not keen on driving there. It's supposed to be raining as well so I might give it a miss. You'll just have to smile at the thought that I'm sitting behind my laptop at home! I'm more than fine with that! 🤗

I've never done any acting apart from school. My father used to tell me I'd make a great actress one day! I think I was being overly dramatic at the time! 😂 I always wanted to be an actress or singer. My father was a good man and we communicated well, in a superficial way. He was the joker, and I will always be grateful for his humour.

The 'hospital' on the Central Coast is a lot smaller and around the corner from my sister so if I go, I'll go there. That way I can see her every day. I've been there about four times, so I know how they run. They also have a smoking area or did have! I'll check it out next month when all the businesses come back. I know it's just an excuse but it's all I've got at the moment. I really don't want to face it! 😝

Anyway, I've rambled on for so long that the Authentication has failed! Talk later. Tell me how you are going on some thread next time. 💛🤗😛