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alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor04 Dec 2025, 4:28 am AEDT

alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

this will be my last sunset from my room this summer and this is my last night where my lion demands my attention and through one look says you packed that bag again how long dont think i dont know.

i just want to say in one spot not over many threads im not afraid because of you all.

i am only able to take this journey because of you all and you need to know you really are valuable part of peoples lives even though not in person you are somehow more real than those with faces.

hell you even have faces in an aura presence kinda way i notice if you guys havent noticed every individual has various struggles every day and somehow know where the support is needed more from a post and that person is shown care, support comfort and given space to safely share what ever they do or dont want to while sharing laughs, positive picture things and genuine care for each other.

i could go on

iwont

need try sleep last night in my bed this summer too and its ok because you my forum family have been taking my rants and fears and insecurity,raw unfiltered over sharing and knowledge of my mistake with patience understandinfg and without them things id still be falling because no one else was reaching to slow me down and find a path back out.

on upside im no comms for at least 10days so i want to post this here for you guys so all know you are appreciated, you know who you are and @moderators all of you, peer guides and supports really for me ive felt such a sense of belonging i thought was lost by losing contact with family.

not one of you asked why i need to do this you know, think about where else so many people dont want to know such things as a whole, for someone thats struggled with addiction since 15 i noticed it and its a first you are truly non judgemental and have made a positive impact for me so please know your worth.

i also thought if this is here you and i know where to go see the pookinator if you want see him before i get to again.

im only going tag a few so it doesnt look like i missed a few out im going leave a shitload out and i think they will tag others and so on and if not maybe they stumble acyoss it, sorry for typos and grammar just smashing this out and lying down few hours with me mate before car gets here 7.50. deep exhale

@tyme @TAB @Glisten @ENKELI @Chasingsunsets @MissGremlin @heartathome @Mustang67 @rav3n @Appleblossom @AuntGlow @Shaz51 please let those not here know i meant nothing by leaving them out and all the support team are part of the family i speak of as they see more than others hehehee night guys will try get on before handing phone over

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heartathomeSenior Contributor02 May 2026, 7:01 am AEST

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https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=dgvcw2vXRm4&si=-ddtaE1GVRLpMUW

Thinking of you 'guys' 💜

@REDLINEZ750 @Bellaley

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor03 May 2026, 9:07 am AEST

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@REDLINEZ750 Good to see your name pop up, but sorry about the group.

Groups, actually need a lot of care. They cant control reactions and what is said that can be harmful. Trauma informed as a buzzword.. is not helpful.

I am also feeling wounded and silenced in other places. Keeping a low profile.

Sending warmth...to you all...

@Chasingsunsets @Bunniekins @heartathome @Bellaley

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor03 May 2026, 9:58 am AEST

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@REDLINEZ750 hey Red thinking of you every time i see a kooka. i will prob get into trouble for saying this for putting pressure on you .... but the bunny thread is missing your wit and humor. there you go. bunx

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor27 May 2026, 3:27 pm AEST

Re: alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never

@Bunniekins @Appleblossom @heartathome @Chasingsunsets @Bunniekins @AlwaysMyself

@ENKELI MAYBE A TRIGGERWARNINGFROMDEPENDANCYEXPOSURE

@ENKELLI stupid black letters

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heartathomeSenior Contributor27 May 2026, 3:55 pm AEST

Re: alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never

Still waiting for it to come up @REDLINEZ750 💚

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor27 May 2026, 4:01 pm AEST

Re: alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never

it should be good, maybe the visuals got them making i havent hidden anything nasty.

like i would

@heartathome

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor27 May 2026, 4:21 pm AEST

Re: alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never

yeah i just read it again and might be some un aliving sorta references inadvertantly @heartathome

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heartathomeSenior Contributor27 May 2026, 4:33 pm AEST

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This hits hard @REDLINEZ750 What came through to me wasn’t weakness or excuses, but you trying to explain what it feels like to live with struggles that people can’t always see from the outside

The lines about being judged without anyone really asking what the last few years have actually been like felt especially powerful. There’s a lot of honesty in this piece, and also a lot of pain.

Underneath all the hurt, anger and exhaustion, there’s still a part of you holding onto life and meaning. I saw that in the ending.

Thank you for sharing something this raw and real. I think a lot of people will recognise themselves in parts of it! 💜

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ChasingsunsetsSenior Contributor27 May 2026, 4:46 pm AEST

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Hey @REDLINEZ750, thanks for the tag and sharing this with me. I can feel the emotion in this. I am so glad despite it all you still think life is worth living, your resilience does shine though, no matter what you have been though you are determined to keep fighting for better. It really is inspiring Red. Don’t underestimate your strength 🙏☀️

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor27 May 2026, 6:04 pm AEST

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thanks for the kindness and bias @heartathome @Chasingsunsets i only wrote it this morning and was therapeutic to lock onto it and write again.

i havent written since rehab and they were just singular paragraphs.

if not for feeling safe to express in the way i do here it would never have been seen by another so please know you are just as important to me.

also too any of the others i have tagged in, @Appleblossom i hope its not triggering for you at all if so please let me know and i wont take offence.

shit now i feel i need to say i dont expect it too im just respecting what i pick up about you which obviously is 2 parts of naff all other than you have been through a lot i would not pretend to understand.

and your very intelligent, that id throw money on

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