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alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor04 Dec 2025, 4:28 am AEDT

alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

this will be my last sunset from my room this summer and this is my last night where my lion demands my attention and through one look says you packed that bag again how long dont think i dont know.

i just want to say in one spot not over many threads im not afraid because of you all.

i am only able to take this journey because of you all and you need to know you really are valuable part of peoples lives even though not in person you are somehow more real than those with faces.

hell you even have faces in an aura presence kinda way i notice if you guys havent noticed every individual has various struggles every day and somehow know where the support is needed more from a post and that person is shown care, support comfort and given space to safely share what ever they do or dont want to while sharing laughs, positive picture things and genuine care for each other.

i could go on

iwont

need try sleep last night in my bed this summer too and its ok because you my forum family have been taking my rants and fears and insecurity,raw unfiltered over sharing and knowledge of my mistake with patience understandinfg and without them things id still be falling because no one else was reaching to slow me down and find a path back out.

on upside im no comms for at least 10days so i want to post this here for you guys so all know you are appreciated, you know who you are and @moderators all of you, peer guides and supports really for me ive felt such a sense of belonging i thought was lost by losing contact with family.

not one of you asked why i need to do this you know, think about where else so many people dont want to know such things as a whole, for someone thats struggled with addiction since 15 i noticed it and its a first you are truly non judgemental and have made a positive impact for me so please know your worth.

i also thought if this is here you and i know where to go see the pookinator if you want see him before i get to again.

im only going tag a few so it doesnt look like i missed a few out im going leave a shitload out and i think they will tag others and so on and if not maybe they stumble acyoss it, sorry for typos and grammar just smashing this out and lying down few hours with me mate before car gets here 7.50. deep exhale

@tyme @TAB @Glisten @ENKELI @Chasingsunsets @MissGremlin @heartathome @Mustang67 @rav3n @Appleblossom @AuntGlow @Shaz51 please let those not here know i meant nothing by leaving them out and all the support team are part of the family i speak of as they see more than others hehehee night guys will try get on before handing phone over

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heartathomeSenior Contributor04 Apr 2026, 10:34 am AEDT

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Aww. Thank you @Bellaley

Support button isn't working on my phone but it's so good to hear from you!

Well done for navigating the forums! It can be confusing for awhile. You did well to remember the @ symbol!

I've already been for a long walk, caught the sunrise, had a double shot coffee at a cafe and now I'm bored! I've been up since 4.30! I hate to think what time I'm going to get up when daylight saving ends tonight!

My vape has just run out and all I have is nicotine patches till Tuesday. It might be time to give it up. I can't really afford them on the pension anyway! I'm trying to look at the larger picture. I've been smoking since I was 14! Ask me how I'm going this afternoon and you'll probably get a totally different response! 😂

I hope today is going well for you. What are you up to? I was just wondering if you like reading?

Important notice! You don't need to answer any questions! You don't even need to acknowledge them! Or even reply! I love that about the forums.

Anyway, sorry. long rave! 💚

@REDLINEZ750 @Appleblossom @Bunniekins @ENKELI @Realness

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heartathomeSenior Contributor12 Apr 2026, 10:12 am AEST

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Good morning @Bellaley

Just wanted to pop in and say hi. I was going to stay with my old partner till Friday but am going home on Tuesday instead. I like the routine I have at home and the city puts me on alert for danger. Much more anxiety.

I'm still getting up at 4am since daylight savings finished. I should feel tired but I'm not. I'm still walking down to the beach, while I'm here, to watch the sunrise, have my double shot coffee and walk back. It's about an hour's walking there and back. I leave at daylight (5.30am) and am back by 7.30, so I miss all the cars and people. It's a beautiful way to start the day. I never would have thought I'd get up for the sunrise each day! It can also make for a long day, as I don't want to go out throughout the day. Too peoplely. My old mate is in his 70's and not very active. He listens to music in his headphones most of the day (he's very deaf) and sleeps. At least it gives me time to get on here and say hello.

How are you doing? 💚

@REDLINEZ750

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heartathomeSenior Contributor18 Apr 2026, 7:29 pm AEST

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Are you okay @Bellaley I know I'm not who you want to talk to, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm here if you do. 😐

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heartathomeSenior Contributor22 Apr 2026, 7:51 am AEST

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https://youtu.be/jQwBtJEbOK8?si=6e68Y5PyaD26t46b

At its heart, the song uses the image of a wildflower as a metaphor for a person—someone who is a bit worn, a bit weathered, but still standing.

A wildflower by the highway → someone exposed to life’s hardships
An old man / old dog / old house → someone tired, shaped by years, maybe a bit set in their ways
A wildflower in a garden → someone who doesn’t quite fit, but still belongs in their own way
It’s really about being both strong and fragile at the same time. That mix of vulnerability and resilience is the emotional core. 💚

@REDLINEZ750 @Bellaley

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BellaleyContributor22 Apr 2026, 5:49 pm AEST

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Thanks #heartathome

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor29 Apr 2026, 1:27 pm AEST

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@heartathome @Bunniekins @Bellaley @Appleblossom @Chasingsunsets @AlwaysMyself sorry for my absence you guys always been with me in thought & yeah im ok just hardened

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BellaleyContributor29 Apr 2026, 5:41 pm AEST

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No such thing as a mental health army my friend... just people in business who lulled you into trusting them when they cant be trusted... we have been & seen through it... but we found each other for a reason... I don't know what that is yet but your actions have showed your worth as a person... actions are stronger than words...

You're a friend i don't deserve 😔

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor29 Apr 2026, 6:40 pm AEST

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@REDLINEZ750 missed you so much red! so good to see you. sorry life is tough for you wishing i could take some of your hurt and wear it instead of you. love bunxxx

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heartathomeSenior Contributor30 Apr 2026, 5:31 am AEST

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Hey @REDLINEZ750 I'm so sorry that this has happened! I don't want to ask any questions and put added pressure on you. I think the poem is expressive and explains itself clearly! Sitting with you Red, sending gentle hugs and much love. xo 💚

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ChasingsunsetsSenior Contributor30 Apr 2026, 10:30 pm AEST

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Sitting with you @REDLINEZ750, been thinking of you. How’s the pookynator going?
Got to get some beach sunset pics soon but here’s a couple I have taken recently ☀️

take care red 🙏

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