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alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor04 Dec 2025, 4:28 am AEDT

alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

this will be my last sunset from my room this summer and this is my last night where my lion demands my attention and through one look says you packed that bag again how long dont think i dont know.

i just want to say in one spot not over many threads im not afraid because of you all.

i am only able to take this journey because of you all and you need to know you really are valuable part of peoples lives even though not in person you are somehow more real than those with faces.

hell you even have faces in an aura presence kinda way i notice if you guys havent noticed every individual has various struggles every day and somehow know where the support is needed more from a post and that person is shown care, support comfort and given space to safely share what ever they do or dont want to while sharing laughs, positive picture things and genuine care for each other.

i could go on

iwont

need try sleep last night in my bed this summer too and its ok because you my forum family have been taking my rants and fears and insecurity,raw unfiltered over sharing and knowledge of my mistake with patience understandinfg and without them things id still be falling because no one else was reaching to slow me down and find a path back out.

on upside im no comms for at least 10days so i want to post this here for you guys so all know you are appreciated, you know who you are and @moderators all of you, peer guides and supports really for me ive felt such a sense of belonging i thought was lost by losing contact with family.

not one of you asked why i need to do this you know, think about where else so many people dont want to know such things as a whole, for someone thats struggled with addiction since 15 i noticed it and its a first you are truly non judgemental and have made a positive impact for me so please know your worth.

i also thought if this is here you and i know where to go see the pookinator if you want see him before i get to again.

im only going tag a few so it doesnt look like i missed a few out im going leave a shitload out and i think they will tag others and so on and if not maybe they stumble acyoss it, sorry for typos and grammar just smashing this out and lying down few hours with me mate before car gets here 7.50. deep exhale

@tyme @TAB @Glisten @ENKELI @Chasingsunsets @MissGremlin @heartathome @Mustang67 @rav3n @Appleblossom @AuntGlow @Shaz51 please let those not here know i meant nothing by leaving them out and all the support team are part of the family i speak of as they see more than others hehehee night guys will try get on before handing phone over

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heartathomeSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 9:27 am AEDT

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Morning @MissGremlin I hope things are 'quieter' today! Much love and warm fuzzies. 💛

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 9:30 am AEDT

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@DahliaDreams hehe yes we are both dreamers.

Awww that's so rough sweet. But with grief there's no set time frame and no right or wrong way that we grieve either. The loss of people close to has always has lasting impacts and even when we have times where the pain feels less it doesn't mean that we won't start hurting again, it reminds us that the love and connection we shared was real and that it meant so much to us.

Thursday night i found out that my niece took her own life, she was only 17. I'm struggling to process it and have been in a state of shock since. I've also been fighting my own demons so when this happened it's just added more to try to manage. (I'm safe).

You're always welcome to share here, most of our threads are pretty open and we are all here to support each other.

Sending you some gentle hugs sweet ❤️

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 9:32 am AEDT

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@heartathome it's been such a rough night for me. I've only had an hour and 37 minutes of sleep. Still trying to work out how I'm supposed to face the day but for now I'm still in my bed with my puppy by my side. (I'm safe).

Thankyou for the love and warm fuzzies sweet, always much appreciated ❤️.

Hope you enjoy church, chat to you later ☺️

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DahliaDreamsSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 10:20 am AEDT

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@MissGremlin ,

I'm so sorry to hear about your young niece. 17 years is still so young, just a baby still. Everything pales in comparison to what you must be going through - the shock, yes, it would take a long time to process all this. I can't imagine. A few of my cousins' kids have had mental health concerns and one was hospitalized a while back... she is okay now.

Metal health problems run in my family, there are a few of us, but its seldom talked about.

I hope you will be okay. Do you have other people around you? I'm glad you are safe.

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 10:44 am AEDT

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@DahliaDreams please know i don't share it to compare anything with anyone. What we go through individually matters, we all have our own stories and each of them are just as important as anyone else's. I shared it so that it's more to show that I have an understanding of the grief we feel when losing someone. Mental health is a struggle for so many people, I'm really glad to hear that she is ok now though. Getting the right help really does make all the difference.

I don't have anyone around me but I have the community here and that's something I truly treasure.

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DahliaDreamsSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 10:55 am AEDT

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@MissGremlin,

yes I understand what you are saying - I knew you didn't share your situation in comparison, just to explain where you are at. I want to be here for you if you need to talk about it, with no expectations that you should have to say anything. I hope you don't feel alone today.

I have my partner here but he does not really understand anxiety having never experienced an anxious day in his life, or so I understand. He is an amazingly stable person - I don't know how he is attracted to me - and that is the truth. I'm not saying he shouldn't be with me - I don't believe that, but it's just interesting who is attracted to who, isn't it?

I will be around on and off today if you need to talk. Thinking of you, Dreamy. xx

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 11:40 am AEDT

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@DahliaDreams thankyou, i really appreciate it ❤️. Whilst I feel alone in the real world, I know I have people here that care about me and that means so much to me.

I'm glad you have your partner but it can be hard when they don't understand what it's like. They often say that opposites attract.

Thankyou again. I'm on and off today aswell. Hoping I can sneak in a nap at some stage after lunch.

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heartathomeSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 12:02 pm AEDT

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I hope you get some more sleep today! @MissGremlin 💛💛

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 12:07 pm AEDT

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Thankyou @heartathome ❤️

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heartathomeSenior Contributor14 Dec 2025, 1:07 pm AEDT

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What was the church like? @REDLINEZ750 Did you go in? Were they welcoming? Did they have any morning tea or cuppa afterwards? Do you remember what the sermon was about? So many questions! I'm just interested in how it went. 😉

I usually can't recall the sermon by the time I leave church, so I wrote down verses from the sermon for the first time today. I posted them on the Christian thread. We had communion as well. The last song we sang was called Living Hope. That's a good way to describe it.

I hope you're having a peaceful day in your head and you're treating yourself with love! Hope to talk later. 💛

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