@Appleblossom Yes it was a real nightmare when the bomb burst, and i literally spend years trying to work it all out, and fix things like i always want to do, but could not, and so only making things worse.😩
It was when i stopped trying. Totally surrendering all my self effort to extinction, and asked The Truth to teach me to love The Truth, also of myself, and every other, truthfully. And so i learned to love truthfully, and in the right order, instead of back to front. i have not looked back since, and since leaving that place, literally left light years of misery behind.😁
My symptoms have not gone away, yet how i understand myself suffering them, and how i now deal with myself, see myself going through my cycles, has changed enormously. Refusing to let bad life grow me more bad life, instead also my dark and rainy days bringing me good crops in the end.
Good night.
Children who often fall learning to walk do not fall over easily when they learn to mind their step in The End..