hello @Baileyboy
oh my goodness, so if next door was set fire to, that would be arson and their insurance company would have had to cover that. i could continue something very wrong there. i will leave it alone, you dont need the memories.
I became so worked up about sorting house out for open yesterday and then another today. I ended up ringing up my son and asking if he minded postponing. I asked half a dozen times if he was upset. poor son. In the end I was told "no mum,. all good, I really am not upset". said he would use time catching up on his working out so felt a bit better about that. I am not telling anyone that I am going into hospital. Just not worth the angst, backwash,fallout. etc etc etc.
de-insected house, very clean perhaps too clean. People told agent lovely home, but too good to bring grandchildren in. I'm wondering does that mean we are over fussy? or what is behaviour of grandchildren like? my 2 cats distressed. hate open inspections because the cat tower moves into the garage. They see all the cleaning happening and know. Female cat hid in cupboard in office.
so same again today.
yesterday husband and I had late lunch, I am just so on edge. He told me when we got home that "sometimes I drive him insane", which of course I know I do. So I said not very nice thing to say to someone, disappeared, and sobbed my eyes out in thebathroom for about 10-15minutes.
He asked if I was ok when I came out, face told the story. I said no, broke down again and said it has hit home that my son will never be the same again. If I ever see him again he will be medicated, zombie or even more paranoid than now. I just cant deal with that. I feel so alone with all of this.
