A song that describes your current emotional state TW

@DownMoreThanUp you have found my weak spot. I have always had trouble trying to love myself.

I love the person who I am inside at my core, I just don't love what I see in the mirror.

@Mustang67 Aha i reckon this must be a gender issue, for already 12-13 or so i realised a mirror can never be me or reflect me. A bit like i found out about my own shadow, but MUCH too late, my mental health was already wrecked meeting the moment of truth there.

@creative_writer @heartathome @AuntGlow @ENKELI

See with our shadow, when the light first comes up, please do not look back at your darkness/past, for then your shadow will be long as! This principle counts same when you see the Sun going down on you. Scary shadows jumping up in front of you then as well! So please turn around immediately when you see that happen. For when you let your past block your future it is always bad news. For then we get the problem with our shadow in reverse! If you see what i mean?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kq0M4miVjyw&list=RDKq0M4miVjyw&start_radio=1

These have been simple but profound lessons in my life suffering mental illness.

Our Soul Worth!

Our soul is worth more than all the wealth of the universe, as Truth shapes our conscious life lived. For existence is worth a lot of love, and it has truth's support too. For truth can make us strong where we are weak in the lie. Of course the truth knows about suffering? Even we do don't we?

For the truth of our soul is the life we have consciously lived surviving pain and deepest suffering. Nothing can rob us of our life reality truly lived. Good or bad, the experience shape us for who we are today! Yet sadly not often who were from the beginning.

This is why we so often struggle i reckon. We all know imbalance finds it hard to remain upright. Yet the truth is even our pain is subdued in the end, by our total inability to cease the moments, specially in the face of our deepest suffering. For Life lived has suffered our every moment, us living it down that deep. In the truth nothing is forgotten, not our tears anyhow, especially when it comes to truth suffering bad life.

How can our truth not be? If 1 + 1 = 2 needs nothing to be, and yet is always true, why do would think we struggle in vain while we have so much beauty out of sight doing that? Nevertheless the truth of conscious reality will let passing moments serve memory of bad life, even as in our good life we long for we are lost to it.

Yet the truth has us true and stored ever as true anyhow. It is breaking the rule those lies doing the hurting us untrue have on us. For we know good lived remains forever deposited within us, us eternalising our own truth as true. And so we can let all other good things shape us our own right as us in us.

Life lived true our truth from now on to be! As simply as that. So for us to stay in touch with true us, let our soul be true , walking truthful love to also endure all eternity. Harvesting that which we ourselves sow around through the time we live loving!

So i believe in the truth of loving life lived. Daily our existence loving life true, even ourselves so despised down deep. All of us feeding from the abundance that wells from being allowed to be around consciously.

For we know we are ALL individual expressions of truth making up unique conscious reality with conscious reality. We all have an original personal identity of being. Knowing this knows a truthful image fears no mirror neither does it need one. For in the truth true is all we look for For then we live Real existence GOOD or BAD.

For suffering has many perspectives in sight! Eyes rimmed all around the truth that is life's wheel. We know for sure suffering life is no good, yet also that suffering can greatly enhance and value good and goodness! And so we cycle through life in real time and space, establishing our future firmly and precise.

For why didn't our love have more words to say than - 'I love suffering to be gone' - if that wasn't because nothing more or improved could ever be said which hasn't already been spoken about us suffering life Down Here doing that? And so the truth of our daily longings will one day be our best friend, when truth cashes in and life in lies dies. For even if in the past our truth was far from been angelic this fact remains the truth does not like bad life either so truth will keep it out once the lie is gone about that.

For a conscious reality which contributes to the whole Consciousness called The Life goodness and love as well as receives it back again - time and again. Where i life of truth like a quantum sprouts into an inner universe, within this universe. Even fully loved and valid in our deepest sufferings and our most ugly times. Nothing better than living truth truthfully - never ending! Then every day we discover immortality the truth that always has us BEST.

An easy fix really when you love bad gone and love in.😃

@DownMoreThanUp It does sound easy. Lol

I no longer look on my past as a bad part of my life; I look at it a learned experience in my journey of life. Yes, I have been through a lot, but if it didn't happen to me, I wouldn't be here now stronger inside than I have ever been, and my mental strength is slowly catching up as well. I have gone deep inside and learned why I made the choices that I made, and I am happy that I was doing the best I could, with the information and knowledge I had at the time.

I still have a long way to go, but I look forward to learning more and improving my quality of life and my mental health.

@Mustang67 Sure it i not easy letting go of the lies that shape us today. i always struggled there profoundly. Yet the comfort is in the truth you KNOW YOURSELF AS TRUE AS WELL, that you are beautiful, totally loveable, uniquely made, with purpose, and a future. Where else do you see truth wasted being around? Why would you believe lies about your value?

@creative_writer @heartathome @AuntGlow @ENKELI @Appleblossom

How could it be different our truth lived not contribute Life? Even stuck life stuck down deep suffering lies hurting?

It is about letting go. That is what it was fro me as a victim. I held onto my pain rather than lived it out and learned to find my identity in. Sure as a child i hide my terror but why would i still agree with such fears and still not be stronger than them? Only believing lies about ourselves end up hurting us so bad. While when we suffer life in our true self we suffer with dignity and learn to take it on the chin and walk away from those painful places making different decisions caring about ourselves instead of surrendering ourselves our own dislike of ourself.

Although you are right such is easy said but much harder learned. True. But you can too. We all can overcome our hardships and become a better person doing so.

In the past i was lost and did not know who i was, confused by voices, psychoses, depression, paranoia and both a victim as well as rejection mindset.

Yet now despite my suffering the same illness i more often find myself harvesting good life rather than bad, even at times down deep. Although that is where i still also struggle hardest.

i found now that each time i take in a bad thought about or towards myself, i not only refute it, i hug myself God's love before i go on. More and more i'm learning to do this. For when we love ourselves, i know we can do all the things we have no interest in doing when we hate or dislike ourself. At least it was like that in my life for years.

It is becoming strong when weak. such truly is a challenge of true being i reckon. Only just was told by my wife how happy she was i was finally getting the counselling i needed and that she had also moved a lot. Such gives me ammunition to fight my nightmares.

@Mustang67 hey hunny oh yes it kills it lol! which doesnt worry me as i am single but yes for someone in a relationship it would be tricky.

@Bunniekins since the meds have killed the drive it no longer worries me, and I have too many back issues to worry about it at the moment. Maybe once my back is strengthened, I will see how I feel. It would be nice to have some intimacy every now and then.

@Mustang67 @creative_writer @DownMoreThanUp @heartathome @StuF @TAB @MissGremlin @Cuddlebear @ENKELI @AlwaysMyself good morning to all the formites! hope you are all well and this cool weather continues to get colder 😛 what song comes to mind omg i am such a creature of habit once i start listening to a particular band then i get stuck on their songs until i get totally sick of them. the words dont really suit my state of mind but i just love there music ..... here we go https://youtu.be/araU0fZj6oQ

@REDLINEZ750 OMG1 i forgot to add you here is a special one for you 😄 https://youtu.be/aWmkuH1k7uA

@Bunniekins I hadn't heard that song before, but I liked it.

@Mustang67 hey hunny how are you going this morning?