@MissGremlin yeah, I know that it'll require me to take a little longer or even a bit longer than that to get to where I'll hopefully would like to (but also not likely where I'd like to at the same time) be at, our brains are really our most powerful tool when it comes to all of these thoughts and feelings that creep up because they all relate to what I've been through and how I've dealt with similar things in the past too. It's not just my own way of seeing things that impacts these thoughts and feelings within me, it's the people that made you feel and think that way too.
Yeah, going through such things myself I do think it feels pretty rewarding when I try to help others and be there to sit through the feelings with them cause I know exactly how it all feels. ❤️
That's true about the last part, I think I might feel the same about my mum whenever that time comes in the future, but as for my dad though I definitely won't miss him at all due to a lot of reasons where I can't stand him at all. One of them including when I lived with my parents at that time (and I know he still does this ongoingly too even though I don't live with them) he's always been the one to create unnecessary drama and issues with us for no reason and it completely frustrates and annoys me everytime the fact that he can't ever be positive nor happy about anything. He's just overall a really moody and sensitive person & constantly complains and talks crap about people behind their backs. Another thing is that he thinks that continuing to send me some positive affirmation related videos and quotes despite the fact that I've requested for him to stop many times before (even I had my mum telling him to stop) he just never stopped. Well gladly he completely stopped doing it since I think late last year after I blocked my mum on Facebook cause that's where he would tend to send me these things through on.
sorry for the long post 0_0