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Re: Poem

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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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sure thing @heartathome not a problem, 😊

do you happen to still have access to a copy of the words still?

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@REDLINEZ750 I can type them again, which is fine! ☺️

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check your gallery on home page @heartathome maybe there but no stress i just cant remove it from compressing to fit, i have 1 more trick to try though Like this @

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Good morning @REDLINEZ750 The light is perfect on both, according to the scenes! Can you put the path back into the background and put the girl that was in rags in. Same with second one. Can I have the girl that was in rags with her back towards us please? Have you got any plans for today? ☺️

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just an easy day on laptop today @heartathome , im in a good headspace i must admit very quiwet in there, with that particular image of girl flipping it to facing opposite direction is a restriction i have but i will find one close now i know your liking.

so you like the second one with path further back/ smaller and with tattered looking girl in first?

hope things are good up north for you today

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Hey @REDLINEZ750 I'm really glad that you're in a good headspace! It feels good! Did you take the bike out last night?

"so you like the second one with path further back/ smaller and with tattered looking girl in first"?

I think so... They will be walking towards the light so we should only see the back of them. I like the back of the tattered girl. I really like the last one you did with just a little bit of light from the muted doorway. Can you take the yellow bit away from the last one. I like the dark room with the dim light.

I'm a bit flat today but okay! I just had some medicinal c*******, so I'm not so clear minded atm. My psych prescribes me a small amount each day to use (for CPTSD and anxiety) instead of some other sedatives. 😎

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This is definitely the background I want for it! It reminds me of where I found her! I like the light on the ground as well. I just remembered that I was going to write the poem out again. Maybe tomorrow. ☺️

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@REDLINEZ750 Here's the poem again.

INNER CHILD

I'm hurting so, I feel so sick

Inside my chest feels like a brick

I might pass out, there's too much pain

But if I stay, I'll go insane

I don't want it covered or pushed down inside

I don't want to run, and I don't want to hide

Looking at her is almost too much

The girl within, I hated such

I'm not clear why or how or where

As it overwhelms, I can hardly bear

I can't get up to face the world

I find myself in a foetal curl

I grasp my stomach, it hurts my head

She is alive, I thought she was dead

I didn't feel, I didn't know

I didn't care, but now it grows

The girl inside, I want her out

She's huddled in fear, of me, no doubt

She is in chains, neglected too

I wonder what I'm supposed to do

I see her face, I see her fear

I never knew she was in there

I'll sit a while, just sit with you

She's so afraid of what I'll do

I'm so, so sorry, I didn't know

You were in there, we'll just go slow

What you feel is all okay

It's not strange to feel that way

Those chains removed, I'll lock the door

In case you run, I can't be sure

You cannot trust, It's okay though

I'll sit with you cause I kinda know

Can I hold you soon and stroke your hair

Cry with you because I care

Slowly now, so, so slow

We'll sit and share so we can grow

Now I know it will never be

The same for us, you and me

My inner child found at last

Of each other we are a part!

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good morning @heartathome, thank you, hope you have a good day and stay cool if the forecast is right

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