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Re: Poem

heartathomeSenior Contributor

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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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@heartathome darkness option?

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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Getting closer @REDLINEZ750 ! I love the girl and woman. Can I have the blurred window back. Can it fit where the door is? I just like it better. How's Pooky? Better after his bath? Poor thing. He looked like a drowned rat! 😂

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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hes manes blowing in the breeze again, imagine if i hit him with hose like my rotty!

you want like a portal with light instead of door do you want a path to it or just hovering?

it can be magical or realistic @heartathome

its easy as i only need to change that one layer if your happy with the images and font as they are?

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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The same as it was in the other one @REDLINEZ750 . I think it had some small steps that faded out.

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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I just saw message i had already been working on it and this is something i came up with as well to present to you @heartathome i hope your well

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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My OCD is saying there's too much on the page. 🤯 😆 I'm actually really happy with just the woman and the girl to be honest. 💛 I think that says it all! I like the faded blue light around them that you've done. That's about all the light there was. That's it @REDLINEZ750 ! Thank you! 🤗 You are very creative!! Let me know if or when you're up for another one. I'm doing okay. I went to bible study today and have a meeting this afternoon for a Lived Experience Advisory Group. That always makes me nervous! ☺️

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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sorry i triggered your OCD i was trying to be mindful and keep co;ours down i will change it for you i saw the footsteps in sand and thought you might like it and its completely ok not too, im not offended by it at all just hope your ok im sorry @heartathome

i hope your lived experience group goes well and im on day 10 of recieving daily bread on phone to stop backsliding and bring christ back into my days

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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Hi @REDLINEZ750 Don't worry about my OCD. I'm a lot better than I used to be. I used to get the same wooden pegs, so I didn't have different colours on the line. I like to count as well. I'm not a germaphobe at all but need order in my life.

I've never heard of receiving communion over the phone. It's a good idea! How long are you doing it for? Just so you know, the word backslide is not in the Bible. My understanding is God gives us a free gift. The Holy Spirit guides us to grow in Christ and do God's will. It's a lifetime process. We're human which means we're flawed and can struggle with God's will, especially if we've had negative experiences through an abusive church or growing up under strict control. I'm proud of you!

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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Verse of the day:

The Lord is close to the broken-hearted. He saves those whose spirits have been crushed.
Psalms 34:18 ICB

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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thank you @heartathome

i am bad when it comes to hanging clothes on yje line i need matching pegs on same clothing or im just unhappy `about the situation

iys not actually commumnion its called my daily bread which i9s an app that has a daily bible read and prayer

hope you had nice day

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