heartathomeSenior Contributor
Re: Poem
For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!
@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!
Therapist
Do you laugh behind my back?
I doubt that you care less
How do you look upon my life?
Pathetic, I would guess
Did you ever give a thought
until I walk on through?
Or am I just another one
waiting patiently in queue?
You hide behind your doctor's mask
I know that's it's not you
I wonder what you're really like
Is what I see all true?
I want to trust and believe in you
But I can't believe you care
You keep your distance emotionally
and personally, never share
I am depressed and miserable
I feel unstable too
Are you glad when time is up
I wish I really knew
I'm so angry, I've no control
You won't open up to me
You have the power, I'm vulnerable
I hate the pain, you see
I sit with this every week
and I'm still compelled to come
My need for love is crushing me
I'm here for just a crumb
Does my pain amuse you so?
Is that behind your smile?
I want control that you won't give
I need to feel worthwhile
I have failed in my eyes
and it brings up all the past
Not wanted and unlovable
It's the role I have been cast
I love and hate you passionately
You hold some king of spell
Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]
But thank you too, as well
I'm feeling now, you wanted that
Though I can't say I'm impressed
I have to trust what you want
Is to see me at my best!